TRAGEDY
What's going on, why is nobody telling me anything, it was all my fault, I should have listened to Bryan. Why did I Let my anger get the better of me. Dad always said I should watch my anger, but I just wanted Bryan to have a test of his own medicine. I never wished for anything to happen to anyone, where is my Daddy? Bryan isn't even talking to me, he must be blaming me for everything. He has the right to because this was all my fault, everything that happened wouldn't have happened if I had just listened to Bryan. (Nicholas said in his head, sitting on the floor directly facing the wall with his back against his elder brother.)
I just hope Nicholas is not feeling bad, I want to talk to him, but I don't know if he will lash out again. He just lashes out on everything, always forcing my hand. But he's my younger brother, and Dad always says I should look out for him. How do I tell him it's not his fault, how do I tell him Dad was already sick but did not want him to panic. I hope he wouldn't think it's because Dad loves me more than him again. He always thinks that, despite being my younger brother and gettin most of the affection. Thank goodness he's not dragging this teddy with me right now. (Bryan said, trying to look over his shoulders to see if his younger brother is okay.)
Poor kids, I wish I could take them in myself, but we have to wait for their aunt. Too bad they also lost their mum to cancer after Nicholas was born, Now they just lost their Dad. Someone needs to tell the younger one that it wasn't the smoke from the fire that killed his father, His father was already dead before he set up that fire. I think that was why the elder one was shouting at him to calm down when we got there. It's just so sad both of them have suffered great losses even before becoming teenagers. I hope their Aunt does a good job of filling up a part of the space their parents left.
