LESSONS I WISH I LEARNT EARLIER IN LIFE

Life is a one time journey.
So, I live to please no one but do the necessary things and live happily...

The extraction above is my bio on Facebook

When I was much younger, I really suffered alot from what I thought people thought about me. Yes, what I thought people thought about me.

Sounds crazy right? Like I'm the one imagining what others thought about me, still I only end up imagining negetive things. I was always worried people thought my stomach was too big, I was worried people thought I was boring, I was worried people thought I was too quiet (to mention but few.) Infact I was literally worried about everything, I always few myself from other people's view and it's always negetive.

As a growing girl, I cared alot about pleasing others, I cared so much about the approval of those around me. I didn't do much to my own approval, it was always about what others thought.

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As a growing girl I had always believed that people's opinion is the best, I always considered other people's opinion over mine, even at my teenage age I struggled to impress everyone. Family, friends, classmates even down to people that live around, my life was always about pleasing others.

Today, I don't completely neglect people's opinion but at least I finally got to understand that in as much as their opinion is important, they are not ultimate.

I got to understand that it is impossible to please everyone, not minding how great you may be, critics are inevitable. I live my life everyday trying to be the best version of me for me and not for anyone, I try my best to get an approval from myself if it comes from others, I genuinely appreciate it but if it doesn't I don't wallow in it. I don't go beating myself up simply because I didn't live up to someone's expectations because my life is mine.

If only I had known this a couple of years back, I really wouldn't have had such a stressful childhood. I really would have been a happier teenager, and who knows, I might have even being a happier adult.

It's not that all those flaws I saw back then has completely disappeared but, I can't allow it weigh me down, because there are also somany things cool about me.
Who knows some people back then might have actually thought I was cool but I was too blinded by my own judgement to even notice.