Living the Dream

I recently came across a list of things I wished to achieve in five years and in the future. I believe I wrote them in 2018 when I was preparing for my final year in senior high. I was enrolled in a mentorship program. I really can’t remember the details but I know it’s something like that that would drive me to write such things down.

And I was actually quite surprised when I read through because I really didn’t think I thought that way at that time. If you asked me, I would say I started thinking that way about 2 to 3 years ago.

And the exciting part of all this is realizing I’m actually living my dream.
I remember a teacher had asked me why I wanted to study computer science and I said I’m just so fascinated by the idea of creating an application to do the things you imagined in your mind. Though I’ve grown so much and learned so many things, I’ve come to know that there’s so much more to computer science than software engineering. I’ve even found data science and AI which has my whole heart right now. But still, I can get up this moment and start building an application with the ideas I have in my mind. So that’s a dream come true for mini me.

I still have thoughts of working in an IT company. But knowing what I know now, I know that’s not even necessary, I can literally work in any kind of company and still get to do what I do best.
I am/was actually part of an NGO that mentors young females. I just stopped being active with it because I feel I need to add more value to myself in order to provide more value to these mentees and I’m working on that. Someone actually spoke to me about that. The person said being around me and seeing what I can do, they believe I should even start my own mentorship program and all that. But imposter syndrome wouldn’t let me be. I know there are still a couple of things before I’m confident enough to openly talk about these things.

The only thing that might have change is building and empire of computer freaks😂. I wonder what that even means. Maybe, just maybe I will come around to it again in a few years. But right now, I’m so focused on self development and getting my life in order that I can’t imagine starting something on my own.

This list made me realize i should probably write another one for the next five years. I keep thinking I know what I want but putting them down on paper would make a lot of difference not to mention the fulfillment you feel in realizing you’ve made your past self proud.

My present self knows I’m not where I want to be. But I’m living the dream of my past self and I can’t be more appreciative of all the steps it took me to get here.