Revelation Of A Friendship That Hurts

Going through the process of becoming an adult, I had so many experiences that had sharpened my knowledge about life, reshaped me in some parts of my weaknesses and cause me to look like as if I knew it all to whoever comes around my life at this time.

I've come to know that human will always be human but the shocking and painful friendship I ended was when I was little, before I grew up which still stayed in my memory after so many years and and that was a start to reshaping my thinking about friends.

This happened while I was in primary school and it was a private school owned by a reputable known church in Nigeria.
We pay school fees unlike government schools but parents are allowed to pay installmentally in case of financial instability.
Aside my twin sister, I had this close friend called Ruth and we were so closed.
Ruth is a very beautiful girl with deep dimples and we got along so well popularly known together but along the line I don't know where the jealousy came from.

It's no doubt that I was a very intelligent pupil and my teacher would always treat me special. She was even the first to mention me studying art in tertiary institution.
There was also a time my parents were unable to pay our school fees on time which was unusual, so instead of sending us back home, my headmistress allowed us stayed in school but sent away others who are yet to pay including my friend Ruth.

When we got to primary 4, the students in primary 5 were about graduating and I was made a head girl in place of the outgoing student and I think this spiked the inner hatred she had towards me. I never believed Ruth could that to me as little as I was then.

My friend started making it very obvious and I started feeling it. We no longer had that closeness, she would always distant herself and we no longer sat on same chair anymore.

One day, she and her brother were sent back home because of their school fees and my twin sis and I were left in school with a call through to my Dad but in a matter of minutes, Ruth's mum came back to school shouting "why would you chase my children out of school and leave Kenny? Is she not owing too? First you carried her above my child, read the speech at that huge event, made her the head girl instead of my daughter and she said this is how you do, sending her home but Kenny stays in school...."

All these and more that she said in school that day shattered my heart as a child. Probably I won't have felt the pain that way if it was now it happened.
That day, she insisted that I was sent back home else she won't leave the school because her child can't be sad because of me.
Thankfully, the headmistress didn't send me home but resolved the matter but it was not resolved in my head.

I carried the pain all through my teenage years and refused to have any closed friend. I concluded that I was not destined to have any and that's why God created me to be twins.
I believe it still affects me till today because I love it to make new friends, connect with people but I don't have a close female friend aside my twin sister and close male friends.

I made a resolution but it still rings in my head when I remember the close friend I once had but this doesn't mean that I regretted taking away my hand of friendship towards her. It was just the best I could do then.

I'll be dropping my pen here on the HiveGhana community prompt on Friendship.

Thanks for reading through 🤗

All pictures are Mine (Not Ruth though 😁)