Grateful

It started as a mild headache and before I realized, I was hallucinating. I remember seeing people in white with wings all around me. It really was a lot of hallucinations and the first of its kind for me. I woke up and realized that nobody was at home. My family had traveled for my aunt’s funeral.

I tried walking, but it felt like my legs had forgotten how to move. I gave myself two options: to cry or seek help. I was teary for a bit but realized it was going to help me solve the problem, so I decided to seek help. I called my mom around 3am and she said she’s been feeling uneasy, which made sense to her after my call.

I quickly dialed my neighbor’s number, and weirdly, he picked up on the first ring. He later told me he always sleeps early, but that day, he just couldn’t sleep. He took me to the hospital and even before we got there, my mom called to say that she was there waiting for us. I was so weak that she had to hold me before I could walk to the consulting room. Funny enough, all the tests that were run on me were negative. I didn’t have malaria, typhoid, or anything at all.

I was told to be taking enough rest and breaks off work. This happened somewhere last year November. Since that time till today, I’ve never had to visit the hospital because of any severe health issues. And I’m so grateful for good health. I’m really grateful that since the year started, my health has been better and stayed better all this time.

I always say that we underrate good health until we’re at a point in our lives where we can’t do the things we used to do. Aside from being grateful for my health, I’m very grateful for my family and friends too. I’ve thought about so many things that could have happened that day if my neighbor was not around. I don’t want to even imagine what would have happened that day if I couldn’t reach my mom.

I can’t talk about the things I’m grateful for without talking about the peace of mind I have in my life right now. Years ago, I had anxiety disorder. You’d always see me moody, panicking or something else. Now, the kind of peace I have in my life is so beautiful. Or should I say stunning. I’m not even exaggerating.

Unlike those days when I used to worry so much about things, I’m actually happy now by God’s Grace. That peace has also facilitated serious growth and glow in my life. And I’m even more excited that it’s so evident to the extent that people see me and ask what my skincare routine is (I wish I had one).

I have other things I am grateful for but for now, let me end here. I sometimes complain about things life’s throwing at me, but in all things, something I’ll never forget is that gratitude is a must.