Drama Detox

At one point, I actually thought I was a bad person because I lost so many friends at once. But along the line, I would occasionally receive a message from an unknown number, either apologizing or checking up on me.

And after looking up the number, I would find out it was one of those friends I lost. I used to be very dramatic. Likeee! Abenad and drama, 5 and 6. Most of the people around me years back were also very dramatic. There was no way you would come to me to tell you a story, and I’d say exactly what happened.

If the story I’m narrating originally is about someone falling down, I’d change everything to the person somersaulting. Oh, and my confrontations… I used to love aggressive confrontations. Not physical violence, just verbal. There was no way I would calmly approach you to talk about something, especially when I know you offended me or my friend. Yes, I was fighting people’s battles for them, unnecessarily.

Years later, and I wasn’t interested in drama and all the things I’ve stated above. I think I tasted the true meaning of peace of mind. Nobody told me it was this heavenly! After not wanting to be dramatic, chaotic, or fight people’s battles for them, most of the friendships just died.

As I said above, at first I thought I did something wrong or stepped on some toes but then as time went by, I realized nothing really happened. They just weren’t getting that side of me anymore, so it was more like I was no longer beneficial to them.

There was this particular day when one of them called to talk about someone. And what he wanted to talk about wasn’t pleasant at all. Someone we both knew was going through a painful phase in life and as I thought he was calling me to find out if we could offer help of any sort, it was the other way round. He called to gossip and mock him. After he realized that I wasn’t interested, he hung up and never spoke to me again.

I remember another person coming to me to report something someone did to her and telling me to do something about it. I looked at her and told her how inappropriate I thought it was for me to go and confront someone who offended her on her behalf. This happened somewhere in 2019 and from that very day, I didn’t hear from her till last week Thursday( my birthday) when she was trying to happy birthday herself into my life again.

I don’t really remember consciously cutting off friends except this one time but most of the time that it happened, it was just because I chose my peace of mind and embraced growth. Now, I have just a triangle of friends and I’m not just happy, but I’m also glowing gracefully.