I've been trying to train my mind to see even the slightest good in everything that's been happening to me, visualize it as life being harsh and retributional. Every time I experience a decline, I take about four to five days in mental isolation to grieve. Recently I've fallen sick, this has led to a decline in my health, and it's a miracle how I'm feeding because my new reality is that I now have to avoid certain good, rich in protein and potassium, errhh for the heart and kidney to stay stable.
However, I decided to take a break and sit at home, giving myself a break from the scary-looking urine and the exhaustion. My hemoglobin level is something I need to build as quickly as possible, it turned out I got severely anemic after I didn't seem to be anemic four to five weeks ago. It's a whole level of depressing. Coming out from a heart-wrenching loss to battling a very serious health condition. The decline has been massive.
I still haven't been feeding appropriately as I should, but a friend came through and has been going to the hospital with me, and his family has cooked me some decent low-sodium meals, taking the time to tidy my apartment after two weeks of leaving it in the wreckage, did a few shopping for me, and left me some food as well. After weeks in isolation, it feels good for someone to come through. I've gone on this endless burst of anxiety and life seems to become blank with no meaning.
It's been endless stress, mental and physical, and watching this affect my body has been unbelievable. I haven't been able to properly cook, shave, or barb, got worse when I fell ill again, but I'm just hoping for this disastrous year to end already. I'll try to stop talking about my health situation no matter how it is, no matter the ramifications or whatever developments. On the flip side, I've still taken time to actively curate content, I do it to keep my mind occupied and time as well.
I've also consumed more content even if I don't make comments, what I mostly do is curate rather than comment. I also see more splinterlands content, especially with news regarding splinterlands. I'm also taking more time to engage on Splinterlands content, especially those that are talking about games and tactics and investment in Splinterlands assets. The contents that are currently catching the eye are those that focus on market predictions.
I think it's wonderful to read, especially when we no longer see the FUDs anymore. Lastly, I've been contemplating a lot. Looking to make some big pleas to some people for help, especially about leaving Nigeria. Hopefully, when the time comes, I'm still here; showing up and fighting.
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Keep up the good fight my friend. I'm sorry to hear about the setbacks. Try to keep those spirits up, I'm rooting for you! You are doing the right thing by keeping yourself distracted and not focusing on struggle too much. I hope things take a turn for the better soon!
Thank you, I am. It just doesn't seem fair; all the fighting, the diagnosis all the battles, the pain and the waiting, it all just feels unfair.
I know that feeling myself, I've found that life is usually very unfair. With my heart issue I feel the same but not much I can really do... The waiting and pain are the worst! Hang in there my friend!
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I hope everything works out, especially the part about leaving Nigeria. I believe you’ll receive better health care if you leave.
Careful with the market predictions though. Let’s not get our hopes too high. Lol
I was even considering health care in Ghana, I heard it can be somewhat better than what we have here.
Glad you accepted some help. Sitting alone in your sorrow is probably the worst thing you can do, in your situation and will not benefit your health at all but I totally get where it's coming from and it's always easier said than done.
Keep breathing.
Sending you strengh.
Also, to get back to your first sentence:
Try to not see it as 'happening to you' but focus on the things that you can control, the choices that you can make and the things that you do have.
Much love!
Thank you. Well, I didn't "accept" the help. It was the only one that came. Not many are offering it, and it's okay. I've accepted that that's how tough times can be. Help is rare and probably few, scanty. Sometimes none.
Thank you for the kind words
Keep fighting, Jose. You are going through lots these days and it's obvious in your written content. All I would say is to keep going and trusting God to make you more stronger than ever. I hope for a quick recovery for you and making your desires met.
It's also nice that you accepted some help from people because it's important than sitting all alone being depressed and not opening up.
I didn't "accept" it, it was the only help I got, and I appreciated it
Thank you for your kind words.
Alright. You are welcome
Thank God and thanks to the friend that came around. Perhaps that is evident of the need to have friends or loved ones around. leaving the country is not bad but then, you need the community of physical people.
Have a wonderful evening sire
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Bro! Please keep being strong. I hope your health gets better. I am thankful to that friend who helped you out during this time. I hope your health improves and you begin to see a meaning to life.
Thank you. Yes, I appreciate them, it's selflessness without comparison
true... I would really love to come around to see you this month.
You are doing well, and a big kudos to your friend and those that took time to care for you. You see, the storm shall pass. Always remember this as you pray. I believe everything will be better and you have to believe it too.
Continue doing your best and feeding your mind with positive news and vibes. I am glad you are getting better.
Thank you, I'll appreciate and bless them. Thanks for the kind words
You are welcome 😊
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Hey bro you going to pass through it
I’m sure you’d be back better and happy. Kudos to that friend and his family. He’s like a God sent. Stay healthy!
It's great when people come through for us, especially in times like this. I think the reflections are good, to better process what you're going through and see it from more than one viewpoint. I pray things get better sooner than later and you find a way leave Nigeria. Change of environment can help tremendously when it comes to healing and recovery.
I pray everything gets better, Thank God for the friend who offered to help. just keep been strong and make sure shave and barb, you just have to keep your spirit alive.
Life is going perfectly well then problems start that's why we have to be ready for everything in life we have to see good times and bad times we have to see troubles also we have to see joys so we have to have our The mind has to be prepared in the same way.
I am so happy to hear that you got such amazing family to support you tidy up and made a meal for u...it's been a lot with you so far..I understand the pain,the feeling and all that, like I will always tell you Joe, stay strong..this too shall pass..be positive on this healing journey. Whatever has a beginning will surely have an end
Stay awesome 😎
It's nice to hear that you are taking a break and it's been tough for you. I am glad that there are people out there to help you. Get well soon and I hope you are able to recover.