I Am #AliveAndThriving Today! || #IAmAliveChallenge || Daily Off-Grid Jungle Journal Entry: Day #736 - 7,400 HP Surpassed, and a Hive-Relationship Choice Point - GaiaYoga Gardens, Lower Puna, Far East Big Island, Hawai'i - Friday, August 2, 2024

I live naked and barefooted, very close to Earth and Nature, in an 18-acre, off-grid, clothing-optional, food-forest intentional community (GaiaYoga Gardens), way out in the jungles of Lower Puna, far East Big Island, Hawai'i, and I have for more than 5 years now. Although there are many challenges, I love my life, and I'm immensely grateful to live where and how I do, on my own terms! I would not want to live any other way! 😁🙏💚⚡💥🔥✴️✳️❇️👣🌱✨🤙

Warm greetings all! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

I reached and surpassed 7,400 HP early this morning, smashing one of my weekly goals in the process, and even ahead of schedule. All of the time and effort that I've put into Hive over the past almost 3 years has very definitely paid off, and in many ways. I've been engaging, connecting, building, and growing Hive like my personal business pretty much the whole time I've been here, devoting a great deal of time and focus to doing it well. The time that I devote to it is an aspect that I knew would likely change at some point, especially if and when a new intimate relationship came into my life, like just spontaneously happened last week, out of the blue.

In spending so much time with Lizzie, which I've loved, I've also fallen behind on Hive multiple times so far. I've skipped my evening Hive rounds twice to spend time with her, doing my best to catch up at my next opportunity. I've been behind quite a bit lately, which definitely stresses me out a little. Lizzie doesn't really understand Hive yet, or why it's so important to me, and she's also doesn't like to be staring at a screen a lot, so I haven't really had the change to explain it in any depth. She wants me to spend time with her, which of course I want to do, and as such not be on Hive as much, which I don't at all know how to do. This has definitely been one challenge point in our connection.

Two years ago, with the end of my relationship with Kai, all the devotion that I had for her, was transferred to building and growing on Hive. That's what's allowed me go grow so quickly and so well. I knew that a time would come again when I needed to balance my life and open up to connections and relationships once more. That time seems to be now.

The only problem is that I don't have any clue yet how to do that. I've gotten myself into a very efficient Hive schedule over time, that up to this point hasn't left a lot of room for human connections. What takes me the most time is going through all my notifications. It usually takes me several hours in the evening, which just so happens to be when I'm usually spending time with Lizzie. I can't not check my notifications for days at a time, or not try to get through them all, otherwise I'd be buried very quickly indeed. Hence my anxiety...lol. Last night did not go well with Lizzie at all, ending quite coldly and abruptly, and while my time on Hive was not the only issue, it was certainly one of them. She could feel my semi-not-present anxiousness. With how sadly it ended last night, I have no idea how it will go today. So I may indeed have to trim down and streamline what I do on Hive, to make more time for Lizzie (or any other relationship if it doesn't flow with her). The question is, how?

Yesterday, I left the Flow House, after my Hive round, just a bit after 2:30PM, straining out and blending kefir (kefir-honey-cinnamon-cacao) first, then collecting a wheelbarrow full of cow-milking food. I also ended up hanging out with Iolanthe for a short while (who wasn't feeling well), at her request, drawing and talking. After hanging out with Io, I took a few more photos for these posts, and then I headed back to the Flow House, to get as far into my evening Hive round as I could, before I went to make food for Lizzie. Unfortunately I did not get anywhere near as far as I would have liked, which frustrated me. While it was wondeful to see Lizzie when she arrived back at GaiaYoga Gardens (after a day of cocoing with Ano), and she was very grateful for the food I had made her, she felt something off in me, and our conversation did not go well at all, with the night ending, as I mentioned above, in a painfully cold manner, with us each returning to our individual spaces. I got as far on my Hive notifications as I could, but I was still quite far behind when I made myself go to bed just after 12:30PM. I didn't sleep well, sadly, waking up tired and with a headache (ugh), doing a round of token management, starting on this post, then getting out of bed to go make my superfood fire coffee.

It's just after 12PM, so a good time to end this post, so that I can get to a few important Hive tasks, before leaving the Flow House later in the afternoon. I don't know if or when I'll connect with Lizzie today, though I so deeply hope that we are able to do so in a beautiful way when we do. I deeply appreciate y'all so very much! Until my entry in the Shadow Hunters Contest later today, and the next version of this post tomorrow. Always forward, onward, upward, and whaleward, ho, together we go! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

2024 Life Goals

1.) Heal my broken heart, reignite my heart sun, and embody a solid, healthy masculine, allowing my electric fire to shine bright, no matter what others, especially women, say or do. 

2.) Bring myself and my life back into balance, integration, and wholeness. 

3.) Do regular (naked) integral practices again, alone or with others. 

4.) Dance regularly again.

5.) Work with natural entheogens (mushrooms, ganja, ayahuasca), with punctuated regularity, as a part of my healing process again. 

 6.) Get, and keep, regular deep, integral energy-body-tantric work healing sessions for women flowing again.

7.) Prepare regular batches of my medicinal teas collected from the land again. 

8.) Make my plant nursery beautiful again.

9.) Live as an integral part of a juicy heart-resonant soul tribe community, with deep, coherent mutual and shared passion, purpose, mission, love, warmth, care, sweetness, reverence, respect, aliveness, admiration, excitement, enjoyment, playfulness, work, fun, laughter, attraction, and all-level connections and relationships. 

10.) Make love with the woman, or the women, that I love, every day, as a sacred devotional practice. 

11.) Begin learning relevant coding/programming languages to more fully contribute to the sovereignty-driven technologies where I am active, like Arch Linux, Hive, Qortal, DeSo, and Bastyon. 

All photos were taken with my Motorola G Play 2024 Android Phone.

Thank you all so much who have helped me get to where I am today, and allowing me to share more of the beauty and magic from my life and my world with you, and for your continuous appreciation and support! I am truly deeply grateful! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

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