Facing Anxiety: Health, Life, and Everything In Between
One of the things life has taught me lately is the fact that regardless of how strong you are, there'll be times when anxiety will just creep in and do everything it can to take charge. Presently, some of the major things that are seriously giving me anxiety are regarding uncertainty about the future, unending financial demands, health challenges, and marital life expectations. It's quite painful to come to realize that regardless of how much you work or effort you put in, life will just still find ways of throwing unexpected hurdles your way, which can go on to feel unbearable.
The major source of anxiety I'm facing presently is regarding my health. I remember my response to the prompt that asked us to evaluate the first quarter of the year in our lives and how I went on to rant about how things have been a rollercoaster, and most of the down relates to my health issues that prompted me to spend almost two million naira in reinstating myself back to a perfect state of health, despite it currently stabilizing. I can't forget how it's been giving me sleepless nights from fear of what the future holds. While this reality has helped me understand how fragile life can be, it has also given me anxiety, because we all know without good health, every other plan is definitely uncertain.
Financial challenges can as well be closely knitted with the health anxiety, since the health challenge is what crippled the savings I had and even prompted me to delve into loans to sail through. It's quite disheartening, and the fear of how I'll manage to sponsor it next needs is constantly giving me anxiety, because while I deal with paying back loans I took, I still have to find ways to foot my daily financial needs.
On the other hand, I know this aspect will prompt people like Nkem and co. to have a few talking points, but then it's fine. This aspect is marital aspects, and as we all know, marriage is a beautiful thing, not to talk about the beautiful result it yields. There are days I feel lonely, especially during moments when I get tangled in between multiple tasks that need to be accomplished. I can't help but reflect on how doing such with a partner would have eased things for me, but then on the other hand, if I want to delve into that phrase, I get anxiety from thinking about if I've healed from previous hurt, if I'm ready in every aspect, or how much more I can carry on with this lifestyle before breaking down. All of these questions and several others usually mess with my mental peace in a way I can't explain.
And that's not even forgetting the master of it all, which is the fear of the unknown, or should I say anxiety about the future, which often revolves around different aspects of my life, from career growth to finance, personal goals, my dreams and aspirations, and many others. All of these thoughts usually make it seem like I'm standing at a crossroads with fog covering what's ahead of both paths, which ends up making me curious about what the future has in store for me, because obviously one wrong move could go on to cost me everything I've worked so hard to gather through the years.
Talking about how I plan on tackling all of these things that seem to be tampering with my mental peace, by relying on my maker to take the wheel of my life, because I know he knows the future, and putting my life in his hands means he'll guide me on the right path. Also, I sometimes talk with trusted friends to share my burden to relieve myself of the worries and as well hopefully get helpful tips and advice that'll help me dial through, and other times I just decide to rest or take a break from everything so I can come back refreshed.
I know it's not going to be a day thing to sail away from mental, emotional, or physical anxiety, but it's a journey that I'm going to take one step at a time and live with the hope and belief that better days are ahead. I won't settle for less because I won't let anxiety define me, so I'm willing to fight for my mental peace by taking those proactive steps.
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Yeah, I understand that fear, when one don't know what next especially when it comes to health challenge. But I believe that it is well with you. The bible says, tell the righteous that it is well with him.
You will move from strength to strength in Jesus name.
Thanks for sharing
Amen thanks so much for your concern and well wishes.
It definitely won't define you and I really admire courage still staying strong because only those who do, eventually succeed with conquering their anxiety.
You are doing great and I pray that God will perfect everything. Really sorry about your financial struggles too, Abba will come through for you. 🤗
Thanks so much brotherly, it's not easy at all, but I'll sail through.
We will, definitely.
This is so true. It's comforting to know we're not alone in feeling this way. Acknowledging the uncertainty is the first step to finding some peace. Thanks for sharing your vulnerability.
It's well, we'll all sail through our challenges.
Starting another relationship when you are still to heal from the previous is really not a good idea.
Thanks for sharing.
Definitely not a good thing.
it is natural to have fears in this life especially about the future, it is good to think about what the future holds but thinking too much about it is not ideal, trusting in God as you and another author i read her article have suggested is a good way to tackle anxiety, also sharing your burdens with friends.
It's a difficult phrase basically everyone goes through tough times.
It's my prayer that we all sail through our difficulties.
Amen.
And by the time you are fully healed to go into another relationship, make sure it is with someone that understands those challenges you face, and is willing to be with you through it all.
Yea I'd work towards that, thanks for your kind words.
Oh yes we have so many things to make us anxious however the power to overcome it lies within us.
Our solace and confidence is hinged on God. The Bible says be anxious for nothing but in all things let my request be known to him.
God will help you brother.
Yea, we've got God and trusting him we know he'll come through for us.
Ok Nkem and co has landed 😂🤲🏿... You see that marital aspect gon gon?? I chuckled and laughed all through it. What a great time to be alive #neopope 😃...
Ok now that's out of the way 😄...
I'm so sorry about your health dear and all that you had to go through. Indeed that's life and overcoming these challenges it's almost like our sole purpose on earth. It's not easy but like we say in Warri, na who give up nai lose.
I'm glad you are sailing despite the sea not being smooth. I'm happy you are determined to overcome and this is me rooting for you and wishing you the best in all your endeavours 💖💞🥂
Sometimes the anxiety can really be much that it becomes so difficult to handle all