Learning to Choose Me, Unapologetically

Most times we find ourselves really busy and get tied up in our busy schedule that we forget to give ourselves the best or prioritize caring for ourselves.
Well, this is a tough one for me and that's because it's always about my siblings, many friends will always say that to me , how I place and put them first daily , meet up to their constant demands for help , care and quest for attention, it's tiring and really exhausting most times, but I also feel obligated to providing the little I can for them whenever I can , meeting up to their needs as their big sister is fun , that I tend to forget that I deserve same care and attention.
Regardless of the fact that I try to be a good big sister often , I don't neglect my monthly and regular needs and that's the self care me, so I still care myself too.
Being able to meet up to my basic needs and also doing the little I can to make my younger sisters feel okay and comfortable is still selfcare to me, because it always makes me feel good too.

I have also tried to step out and also tried to distance myself and chill without them , but it doesn't feel complete or enjoyable.
I also tried to get myself the somethings that I desire and that have always made me feel good, it's a form of self care too.
In all, I have also come to realize that self care doesn't have to be a big present or action , the smallest thing we do to feel good, make ourselves happy, take care of ourselves and even feel better counts as self care and also means we are prioritizing ourselves, it's basically prioritizing ourselves, giving ourselves the best relaxation too.
Funny how, it could even be sleeping daily, that's self care.

The last time I did something for myself and just myself, without considering others was during the last Christmas period, I got myself some presents and I also did for others, but then I made the Christmas quite different this time.
The normal Christmas for some years has been about me making others happy, cooking and serving all day, and at the end of the day I will feel so stressed and will just sleep instead of hanging out, when without connecting with friends and extended family on phone, but this year Christmas I decided it wasn't going to only be about cooking, cleaning, serving and spending all day and night in the kitchen, but this time I also visited, went out and made sure I honored every invitation and outing , I left the kitchen and was also taken care of.

I was able to leave the stress and duties that would have kept me busy all day, the stress that would have made the kitchen the only place I visited for the Christmas .
I was able to meet my childhood friends, was able to share my contacts and also got the liberty of coming home quite late and to my surprise noone shouted at me, I was glad I went out , bonded with my friends and came back happily.
Also I choosed myself the moment that I decided to quite from a toxic working place, I choose myself when I decided to be better person and look for better opportunities and that's selfcare.

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Picture is Ai Generated.
Second picture is mine.

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