The One That Worked Perfectly and Still Keeps Me Up

The white lie I can say I remember very vividly is not that one unraveled. At least, that type would have been much easier to process well. Those that tell white lies that unravel at least give someone some consequences to a certain level, a lesson to gain from it, and a clear reason to tell you why the person won't do it again. But mine didn't leave.
It didn't just leave just as it came because it served its purpose completely. And I moved with it quietly like that for years without any of the relief I expected to feel once the time has passed.

There was this close pal of mine that was having a very difficult time because he was going through financial and emotional challenges. But she called me to ask if the decision she had already made was the best decision for her. And looking at it, the type of decision she made cannot be reversed at that particular point. Deep down in me, I knew her decision was not the best option.
It was not right for her. I have studied the situation very uptight just to see the specific ways it was going to cost her in the few years to come. But the deed has been done. She has spent the money.
The commitment has also been signed. So, at that point, I told her what she just needed to hear and not what I actually believed.

Just like the way I saw it privately, that was exactly the next few years happened. Thank God it didn't pass the two years I expected. She passed through some struggles. But not for once was she able to think deeply that her original decision caused it, but I was glad because she did not collapse under it either. She became stronger and adapted to it over time. And her letter came through. She was able to go all through this believing in her mind that the choice she made was the reasonable one, which maybe gave her the confidence and mind to be able to get past all that she went through without drowning.

In that moment, what exactly was the truth serving? This was the honest question I had to ask myself, and till now, I have not found a clearer answer. I am sure if I had told her the truth, I would probably have broken something in her even before the difficult moment arrived. And this might have drowned her. The lie I told her left something intact, and that was one of the reasons she survived.

Though I will never recommend this to anyone. And I am not saying that deception is kind or a wise thing to do. I am just saying that the white lie I told never drowned or crushed her because the truth would definitely have done that easily. And that absence of damage is somehow still harder to sit with than a clear mistake would have been.

Thank you for reading.

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