The Day I Stopped Asking, "Why Not Me?"

Ahhhhh 😌 comparison!! For me it isn't something to be ashamed of where I would say... oooh I have never struggled with comparison before because guy en don do me before and the story wasn't fun then, but you know all this long story stuff so let's just cut this one short, shall we?

I have struggled with comparison from my mates or peers looking better than me to guys approaching them more than they approach me to how big in all size me friends look and am just one there to how intelligent others get to be and I am still here struggling to cramp the uncrampable, to the one that pained me the most which was how my peers were getting everything smooth and I in person would have to struggle to get even the little things in life, inorder for you to understand this phase where I was let's do a background check, more like a rewinding.

I was this kind of person that most of my friends would just dash their clothes to, like the cloth wasn't their size or perhaps they are changing their wardrobe and who else is better to give those old but me, I would see my friends buying attachment every two weeks to just change their hairstyle and here I am still struggling to use my wholly for the second or third time, like guy in those phases ehnnn I have never used a new attachment on my hair, I will see them changing phones and all that while I am still managing my own android that has a damaged screen, so with all these I began to compare and I wasn't just comparing I was trying to find out where my own became different, was it the kind of family I came from? Or that I am not luck enough to meet guys that would foot my bills effortlessly? Or that I wasn't even beautiful enough to attract good things.

This thing affected me so bad that one night when everyone was fast asleep at home I was scrolling through Facebook and I came across a friend of mine that seems to be really doing well because she had just posted one of her outing, I didn't even know when I bursted out in tears and I begin to ask God why is my own case different? I started even questioning God that what's the gain for those of us who have decided to keep ourselves and follow the right path, hope we are not missing out on anything? It was at that moment that I knew that this comparison thing had really affected my mental state and it took the grace of God and my mom to calm me down that night.

Yes!! most definitely anything that has an advantage would also have a disadvantage and this is just one of the pegs of comparison in a negative perspective so I know that comparison is also very harmful If it's taken in excessively, it sure can be a bad thing but mind you it can be a good thing as well.

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