False Peace
It took me a long time to be able to express my emotions exactly how I felt. I would get angry and not know what to do or say. Eventually, I got used to bottling my feelings up. And although it started because I didn’t know how to express myself, I started getting compliments like “You’re so calm”, “You’re so cool even when you’re angry,” and I just got stuck with that facade of calmness.
If you can relate to what I’m talking about, you need to understand what you’re doing. It’s crucial to know if you’re being real or just riding on the accolades of people. The latter only means you’re in the calm before the storm. That calm period will end anytime soon because, in all honesty, that’s not who you are. You’re only wearing a mask that has been woven by the “comments” of people.
And it’s also making you invalidate your feelings to make people feel okay and while that happens, yours get bottled up. “Okay, but I will still be that humble, charming….” Trust me, it’s only a matter of time until you explode (the storm). And after you do, the only thing they would see on your forehead is “monster”.
I remember the very first time I couldn’t contain my anger. "Is that how you are?", "Ohh you are not good at all" were on the lips of the same people who showered praises on me for being "calm." Don’t forget it takes that one bad out of 99 good to be seen as the devil.
Are you telling me to get angry and be throwing things around? Get angry? Yes. Throw things around? No. Don't forget there are always braver and better ways to express how you feel. The whole point of this post is to let you know your emotions are very valid and make sure you express them whenever you feel them.
People say they choose not to show emotions for their own peace of mind. But is it still called peace of mind when that emotion keeps eating into your brain and even your heart? Causing you anxiety and even depression? Come on. It is important for people to also know how you really feel about certain situations, especially when they concern you.
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Most people see speaking up as being immature and they use that against those that try to always say what’s on their mind and that’s how those words keep getting to them and they one day just stop saying what’s on their minds. They bottle it all up.
Indeed, our emotions are valid. It’s only when we speak up we can get help.
!PIMP
Very true. People only get to know what’s happening to you when you say it.
That’s right. Sadly sometimes you don’t even know what is wrong with your own self, lol.
!PIMP
Just a glance at this statement and I thought you were talking about me. Except you don't know me. But I can very much relate to that and you just opened my eyes to what I didn't know.
Whenever I'm angry, I literally become dumb without a clue on how to express myself. Silence is always my immediate response and most times, I just plaster a smile on my face, trying so hard to conceal my true feelings. But the day I couldn't hold it anymore, it was nothing short of a disaster.
I’m sorry you also had such an unpleasant experience. How about now? Do you still conceal your emotions?
To be honest. I still do but not as often as before. I would like to say I do some sort of countdown, if I'm constantly being annoyed by the same person over again. But for first timers , I let them know at once.
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