An eye for an eye?

I know this might sound funny and I’ve actually been contemplating for about 4 hours if I should even write this but let me just get my thoughts out here. So I’ve heard an eye for an eye so many times but never really understood it until today.

I actually thought an eye for an eye means do to people what they do to you. More like whatever people do to you, reciprocate it. I know right? Funny. I found out today that it means whatever crime someone commits, the punishment he/she faces should be the same as the crime.

That’s not even what I’m here to talk about but it came up in a conversation today. Today, I was asking someone how to deal with a selfish person. I wanted to know what to do when someone I’ve been and is still there for through thick and thin but never for once even tries to check on me. No, no, I’m not asking the person to reciprocate whatever I’m doing for them but I thought it would be nice to check up on certain things she knows I’m going through.

There were times I had to stay up all night to be for the person even though I’ve been advised against that several times due to health reasons. I don’t want to go on and on to make it seem like I’m broadcasting my good works but I just hope you understand me.

I’m not one to even ask such a question(how to deal with a selfish person). I’m not one to want to know what to do if someone is not nice to me but I’m just so drained all the time around this person. I’ve never had an issue being supportive in people’s lives but this is just becoming draining and one sided. I’m just realizing I’ve said draining a lot because I’m actually being drained.

And so when the person told me to mirror my friend’s behavior, I told him I didn’t want to take an eye for an eye. Yes, that’s where the whole eye for an eye in this post comes from but I’m glad I found out it even has a different meaning.

After sitting down with myself for sometime, I decided to just let go. I could have done that a long time ago but I was holding on to her because we’ve been friends for as long as I can remember. And I’m glad that I realized today that she’s not even had an positive impact on my life over all these years. I’m not going to mirror her behavior but just like how supportive I am to her, I’m going to channel that support to myself. And always remember to never nothing or anyone drain me like this again.