A Sensitive Dilemma

After I read the current prompt, I thought about so many things. The one thing that kept occurring to me was “this will be a difficult sacrifice”. Sacrifice is not even that easy when it comes to our loved ones than to talk about a baby I don’t even know anywhere.

At first, I thought about myself. I’m 80 years meaning I’ve been on this earth for a long time and I’ve seen a lot of things. And then another part of me came up with something interesting. What if I was yet to see my grandchildren or even great grandchildren? What if I was yet to see new things I’ve been waiting to see all my 80 years?

My grandfather never got to see an eclipse until he was around 60 years old. And after he witnessed it, the smiles on his face was priceless. He said he never got the time for such things so it was only during his retirement that he could do certain things. What if that is the case for me?

I also thought about the fact that although loss of sight doesn’t mean end of the world but it would mean hopelessness for me. And that is because I’ve probably lived all my life being able to see and have no idea how to live without my sight. If I was born blind, then maybe you could say I already know how to live like a blind person. But then imagine an 80 year old person who is probably surviving on a walking stick and then suddenly going blind.

After thinking about me, I thought about the baby. The endless possibilities of the baby’s future. I remember watching this particular movie where a doctor saved a boy’s life and the boy grew up to save the doctor’s life too. And there was another movie where a doctor saved a boy’s life and when he grew up, he became an armed robber and ended up killing the doctor’s daughter. So these things made me think about the baby too.

Will he grow up to be a good person to the society? Or will he grow up to cause pain to the people around him. Will he be able to fulfill his purpose on earth even if I don’t sacrifice my eyes? I know someone might probably say why think about all these things, after all you’re 80 years and nearing death. Well, death knows no age and in as much old people die, don’t forget babies also die too.

After thinking about all of the above, I concluded that of course the new life can have my sight. I have already lived life, enjoyed and seen almost all that there is to see for 80 good years. I don’t know what the future holds, whether he’ll grow up and a good person or not but that’s a chance I’m willing to take.

And that’s the thing with sacrifice. You give out your all and whatever the person decides to do with it is absolutely up to them. You can only hope they choose a better option.