Layers of Me: Everyone's Unique Experience
One thing that's common with them is that I like to talk or think out loud; other times, I just crawl into my shell and do not want to talk. Some of them think I'm a very logical person; others think I'm just a big fool because I only do stupid things around them, but a few times, when I'm in my head about the things I want to do for myself, they see that I'm a little too serious. And, oh, I'm actually quite funny.
(You wouldn't easily guess this, and I don't know how I do it.).
For most people who just see me around, or I've never sat down to have a conversation with them, they only see this person who never smiles and doesn't even like to talk or mingle with others. But after our first few interactions, I always get "you're so funny" or "I actually didn't think it would be this easy to talk to you."
In a weird way, a tiny bit of me does enjoy people thinking they just can't walk up and talk to me. I think it saves me from a lot of unnecessary pleasantries, though I don't do it intentionally.
The point I'm getting at is that I think I'm an all-around person, and so a circle would be the best shape for me.
I am able to relate to people at their level and make them feel like this is a safe space to talk. If there's a work that I don't get enough recognition for, it's the countless therapy and counselling sessions I give to my friends.
In all this, though, I sometimes wonder if it's a good thing, because you can hardly ever guess what I'm thinking. And you can't immediately tell if you've wronged me. Because I will smile at you and cancel you in my head.
One thing I'm glad about is being very open-minded and constantly readjusting my point of view in ways that make better sense. I was having a conversation with my friend. This is someone that I have talked to every single day for the past year or two. She said she knows this is how I would see this issue, and I was like, You don't really know me. Honestly, I don't think anyone does. The way I explore different ideologies is crazy, and my friends are hardly able to keep up.
One thing that helps me is the self-development books I read. I am currently reading "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle. That book makes my head ache. Maybe I will do a review soon. Have you ever read a book and felt like no one else should have access to this information? Yeah!
But I know I need to do better, and I am constantly doing that. I am constantly asking how the other person thinks I could have handled a situation better and how it makes them feel.
I do not know you... But after reading this post and looking at your picture,(not because you said it) I think you are logical (from how you write) and can be funny... Somehow your look just says it
Oh I see. This is the first time I’m getting this feedback.
Thank you
See, I even forgot what I was going to say.😂
Yeah I just remembered. One time someone approached me saying I come off as intimidating which makes it difficult for others to approach me and I’m like me?😂
All I could tell this person was that everyone will see you the way he thinks of you until they approach you and get to know the real you.
Well, I think I agree a little with what the person said😂
What are you also saying?😂
Oh I’m not saying anything 😂
How can I even say something
Better😂
Oh so we’re in the same boat.Can’t count the number of time people told me I look mean .
😂😂😂
At this point, it’s something I even expect to hear
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People have different definitions to our silence, some might think your to proud while others might think your too proud but only you understand why you decide to keep silent in some areas or during some discussions, but like you said always look for how to do better and be open minded.
Yeah surely