Ladies of hive community contest #158/ my past experiences which they say makes about the history (my diary)

Hello, beautiful ladies

It's another wonderful new week and am so so super excited to be here once again and also share briefly about own view about this week contest which has been given to us by @ladiesofhive the opportunity to share our mind-blowing thoughts towards the options given.

DEAR DIARY...
Write a blog with 500 words on any topic, as you would do in your diary. The diary is a freewrite but must be true, up close and personal!

Looking at the this week contest I have been thinking of what to write, 🤔🤔🤔🤔 but I think I have finally found what to write on which is about finally letting my past life being a bygone story though it's true about the saying of it's the past that makes about the history and not allowing myself to be blamed or rather allowing it to ruin my present life.

Most of us here might have had so much of an ugly past stories which at some point of it we almost got so depressed and felt like committing suicide as well which isn't the right solution. At some point of my past experiences I had almost killed myself simply because of most incident that occurred made me fell in depression and I went to the kitchen took a knife to stab myself.

One of my siblings caught me and went report me to my parents and they all ran out of the house trying to plead with me not to do it and then after much pleading I decided to drop off the knife and then after that day the story didn't end there my mom still went to church to report to my pastor then in church who finally called me and started asking me what triggered my attention to that.

Sometimes when I seat to have a thought on some few things my past experiences flashes back to my memory and then I begin to smile and equally laughing as well because it seems to be childish, weird and so ugly as well and then I begin to tell myself that all of my past experiences it's indeed worth pening down in a book to make a diary or story book for my kids to see my ugly phase.

There is a saying about life is in phases and men are in sizes, though most people might not really understand all of these but it's actually true and there's also a saying about all hands are not equal and that as our faces are different so our cases are different too.

So many other things happened to me which I can't really start making details one after the other but with the little ones I can remember I will be bringing them up, because at some point of my past experiences I lost my virginity and up till date I didn't even tell my mom how I was almost raped the same week after I lost my dad in 2017 here in Nigeria.

Thanks for reading my content it's your friend @damsel001 do have a nice day and an amazing new week as well. Love you all plenty plenty.