I AM BEAUTIFUL!

Hello everyone ! I hope everyone is having a good night as I am typing this blog. I am actually not sure what I wanted to talk about today, but all I know is that I am feeling very insecure with a lot of things going on in my life. I have to constantly needed to remind myself that I am a beautiful person every time the feeling of insecurities occured. It is always in my my mind just swarming like bees and doesn't want to go away. It is not a good moment for me because it feels like I am going lunatic over something that doesn't even exist. And it is a very lonely feeling. The sensation of the awkwardness is just everywhere and I am trying to fight it, trying to think that it will pass momentarily. In order for me to do that I have to do a voice over repeatedly talking to myself in my head over and over telling myself that "I am beautiful". Just typing it in here feels embarrassing already knowing that I might be the only one who is feeling this way... How I wished there's a medicine that I can just drink in order for me not to feel this way. But of course, there's none. So I will just post a selfie to make myself feel better.

I am beautiful! Is this picture that I posted made me feel better? Definitely not. I am still in that same way of awkwardness insecured feeling that I have earlier. Let me try another picture, maybe it will help.

I am beautiful! Did this picture made that feeling of insecurity go away? It is still here. It definitely did not do the trick to make that lingering feeling vanish. But I am surprise that as I am keyboarding it away my emotion of feeling insecure went down a notch. Let me put more picture.

I am beautiful! Definitely my emotion about being insecure is subsiding and I am feeling a little bit embarrassed now for posting my selfie. I am in that that type of situation if what I am doing is right or wrong. Let me try posting another picture.

I am beautiful! I am now evaluating my emotion and feeling of being insecure is gone to zero. And I am leaning towards of feeling ashamed and questioning myself why I posted my selfie. Having the satisfaction of what I really wanted to achieve in doing this becomes more confusing.

I am beautiful!
I therefore conclude, posting a selfie definitely helps when you are in a state of being insecure and not sure why you are having that emotion.
Secondly, posting a selfie only relief that insecurity emotion for quite sometime.
Lastly, how many selfie will I really need to make myself feel better.

I know this blog doesn't really make sense, as I am reading it again... I am contemplating if I should post it or not.
Thank you for reading my blog and please feel free to comment and give advise on how to overcome in times of dealing with your own insecurities.
Have a blessed night to everyone.