Age is not Directly Proportionate to Death

Namaste,

I've been quite confused from Tuesday onwards as I wasn't sure how to feel. The story starts from Tuesday morning, my brother called and he said my cousin sister's husband died yesterday.

Let's just brief, we're a huge joint family, and we're very close to each other, so my sister; eldest of all lives in Australia she was married 10 years back with the love of her life and to her 8 years old boyfriend with alot of disagreements from our family member as we're a typical bramhin ( a member of the highest or priestly caste in the Hindu caste system ) family who doesn't believe getting married in other caste; don't ever think about other religion. It's a sin to even think about. Also she has a 8 year old daughter and she's 5 months pregnant.

It was quite shocking for us as our brother in law never had any preexisting issues and the cause of death was heart attack. That only made me think is there any relation to age and death as we for our whole life plan to get settled in a certain age and also work for our whole lifetime just be earn enough for our old age which we really going to see or not is not sure.

Death is uncertain, so is our time on this earth and all of this is very tough for me as I'm in that age where we actually start thinking about our savings and investments and also our old age source of income. This puts me in a position to ask am I really going to see my old wrinkled self or not. What am I doing here in the city which I not like very much or what am I doing here wasting my time in a job which I definitely don't like and also what am I doing being surrounded by narcissistic personality who truly ain't there for me.

There's no answer to any of these as there's no answer to what my sister is going to do with the rest of her life because here in India we believe a women's life is fully dependent on her partner and she's nothing without one and also there's one old saying which my maternal grandmother told my mother after my father's death " jab ladki ki doli jaati h ghar se to sidhe uski arthi hi aati h " stating when a women's wedding carriage goes out of her parents place to her in laws they only expect her to come back in her bier. This statement is often said to women to create pressure on them to stay in their marriage and also that we won't take you back whatsoever the situation of your married life is.

Thanks for reading. Some pictures aren't really appropriate to watch. My apologies.
Some of these pictures are from my gallery and some are shared to me by my sister. I'm really unsure about pictures still I'm posting to justify my emotions.