The inevitable task
Something happened earlier today that got me thinking; I've never been pained about life like I was today and when stuff like this happens , I just wonder why humans have to bear so much burden on themselves as part of life's task. No one knew growing up had so many challenges that could make one go mentally derailed if he had to focus on them. Oftentimes it feels like solving one problem was all you needed to do to be free, but no, they quietly stare, waiting for the one to leave so others could rush in.
One thing that hurts most is expectations. Yeah, especially when they fail. I almost thought I was going to be a bit financially stable today until reality hit. This made me think about my life for a second. Most of the things I do lie on expectations, over and over again they've failed me and I was thinking of other possible ways to do things without expecting what's only promised. I realized the kind of job I do can only strive through expectations, anyone who farms airdrop or an airdrop hunter is a man who goes into the wild hoping to catch something big for a feast, but just like hunting, sometimes the hunter comes back empty, with little, catch big or get eaten.
But then why was I bitter today?, someone may ask. It's simply because I became an adult too early in life, and never had certain privileges of parental upbringing. I've never had a time to know what it means to eat without stressing. It's often one's hustle for a meal and when I'm losing, it hurts me to remember I've been a stand-alone soldier since my teens. Why do I have to work for everything? It's a blessing sometimes, because it makes one strong, but then we all have a part that's fragile. I wish I could be free , but that is an illusion, there's often an inevitable task filled with problems to solve.
