The Fear of being Cringe

One thing I'm trying hard to overcome this new year is the fear of being talked about, the fear of "what people will say". We stop living like actual humans. We swallow our opinions, give up one that idea, keep our head low because you're afraid that people will laugh at you. I've given up on so many ideas because I was afraid that people will think. The funny thing is most of the time people don't notice, they don't really care, they are just fighting their own battles.

Authenticity is now a rare commodity and people are abandoning themselves just to conform to societal norms and value. I think we've all been affected with the spotlight effect. We feel like we are on the spotlight and everyone is watching and waiting for you to do something embarrassing. People are watching but not as much as you think they are.

Growing up, I remember my mom saying "act proper, because people where always watching, observing, noticing what you do". This made me feel like I was a main character in a TV show and I had to make the right decisions. Although this was a really good reason to act proper, I felt like this has made me live too carefully, not properly expressing myself for the fear of what people will say. I'll not wear that dress because what if people think I'm too much or I'll not start that project because what if people laugh at me.

The funny thing is that people will always talk, think or judge what ever you do. Sometimes we just have to live unapologetically and live as we'd want to, because one day you'll wake up wondering where the the years went and you'd regret why you didn't start that project, go for that job, wear that dress or dance in the rain when you had that opportunity to.

It's still Abeegail,
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