Letting Go...

Something happened yesterday and I kept thinking why. Why is it hard for some people to let go and just move on with life? I don't know but this is something I find so easy to do, maybe because of the kind of person I am or how I have grown to understand how life is and what to expect.

My aunt was to go pick up an order at the garage two days ago and I understand her condition of how she's struggling to survive financially; this wasn't her years ago when we were living together. She has really helped us a lot, and my being here today is part of her support and contribution, and it is why my siblings and I, who are doing well today, are trying to make her happy.

She got pissed off by the driver because of a small amount she could have let go on a normal day. But I was astonished the next morning how she called the driver to express her dissatisfaction, something another person would forgo and see as part of life and what others are doing to survive. That experience made me realise what poverty can do to someone, even one cent could make one flare up.

She's supposed to let go, but I saw she hung up on it and perhaps was thinking about it throughout the night.

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This is something I wouldn't do, and it has made me fall in love with my life as I don't keep grudges or get mad at someone for a long time. I don't hang on to something for long for the sake of peace. I know how it is to not let go of something, especially when it comes to not forgiving someone.

In a movie I watched a few days ago, this man was counselling a young boy who found it hard to forgive his father, and the man said something, "If you don't forgive, it will poison you." Without realizing how much we are hurting ourselves, when we don't forgive or let go, it keeps us stuck in different ways and makes it hard to move on. We don't usually understand this but when we take out time to study the act of forgiveness, we would know we are doing ourselves more good when we freely let go.

Letting go is just like decluttering. When we take time to free up space in our cabinet (hearts) and decorate it with beautiful things of life, trust me, just like this lovely space, we will find it easy to live. Holding on to unforgiveness or not wanting to forget what made you sad the previous day is like having lots of trash stored up in your heart, and it's impossible to breathe easily. It's going to poison you.

My life has been simple, and it has made me stay happy because I tend to free up space in my heart by allowing good things to occupy rather than cluttering my heart with garbage that wouldn't allow me to breathe well and enjoy what life has in store for me.

_{A surprise birthday cake I made for a little girl}

Another thing that makes me fall in love with my life is by surprising people. I understand the act of giving, most especially when it comes to taking it to another level which is by surprise. It gives me joy when I see the reaction of people when I give them something they weren't expecting, and that has been part of my life to do it and stay happy.

There was a woman in my church who wanted to celebrate her daughter's birthday but already has spent a lot of money on her resumption. I asked her how she intended to celebrate her daughter's birthday, and she deeply told me how she wished to make a cake to mark her 2 years but couldn't afford it. I didn't say anything other than God will provide for her.

A day before the birthday, I called her so we could meet without telling her anything. When she saw me handing over a cake, she was shocked as she wasn't expecting it, but it happened. She kept showering me with lots of prayers, and that was what I needed. If I ever give something out, I don't need anything other than prayer, and that is my happiness and what makes life enjoyable for me.

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_{All images are mine}