Deeds We Weren't Proud Of, But Are Part Of Our Story.
Finding my feet was always this easy, I struggled with identity, struggled with purpose, I mean I struggled with literally everything but then growth and life happened so here we are and I am privileged to share one of those struggles with you all.
The kind of background I grew up in was a really tight one, tight in the sense that my both parents are believers they serve God like a full time work and the whole household are definitely supposed to serve God and you either serve him willingly or forcefully, forcefully in the sense that you go to church even when you don't want to, you read your Bible when you prefer to watch films, you take up fasting on days you wished the whole food should be given to you to consume and let's not go to dressing, you can't just wear any other clothes your age mates are wearing because our body is supposed to glorify God.
That was when a double ganger version of me started, where I would love to long skirts at home but once I go out I would drag them up to make them short, where I listen to gospel music Infront of everyone but when I am in close doors I listen to circular music, where I fast with them at home but once I the house during the fasting time I branch to any of my friends house to eat something.
Oooh yess I got that approval of being a good girl atleast I wasn't getting scolded but little did I know that I was just deceiving myself because the God I claimed to serve sees everything we do and He can't be fooled, it came to a point where I realized that it was pointless so I actually regretted doing it.
And this is the point where I draw the curtains, hope you are enjoying the weekend ✌️
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STOPThe fact that you regretted your actions is actually enough. Some people do all sorts of things and still don’t even see anything wrong with it.
It's good that you're able to admit or that you regretted your actions. It's not something everyone can do.
No matter how we let ourselves believe that what we are doing or what we do can always remain hidden, God is seeing us.
Oh my!! This was so common back in the days. People wearing outfits their parents would never have approved, to outings. It’s so nice you’ve realized your wrongs, and taht no matter how you fooled people, you can’t end up fooling yourself.