BURNING WORDS
As I start writing to sacrifice to THE FLAMES, I can feel my heart leap with excitement and uncertainty. I’m wondering what is in my heart that I wish to give to the flame but I know it will be a worthy sacrifice. When it comes to writing or creating anything, I always prefer to let it flow, I prefer when it works magic on its own. While I was thinking of what to write first to the flames, a lot of things came to my mind but because my body was weak, it affected my mind too and it was hard to settle for anything to write about and I told myself to wait it out. Time never goes wrong. At least that’s what I’m choosing to accept.
While I was sick for almost two weeks, I was worried. I thought I won’t be able to recover from what I was feeling at that point. It was serious. I hated drugs so I knew I’d be fighting a lot to get through what I’m already in. I even had to take drip and injections too. I was that weak and it made everything about me weak too. At night I couldn’t sleep. I kept feeling this sharp pain all over my body and I couldn’t even cry which was so unlike me. Usually I like crying when I was in pain but at that point, crying took so much energy from me and I just couldn’t afford to cry.
I’d roll from one side to the other after much struggles and it wasn’t fun at all. Those nights were the longest. It felt like I was living a particular night more than once the same way. That made me scared but I tried to remind myself that I wasn’t alone, both physically, emotionally, spiritually, mentally and even digitally. That comforted me a whole lot and it kept me going. It kept me pushing through my fears and worries. All that I started focusing on was recovering and it took no time before I started seeing improvements in my health.
At that point when I thought I might not make it out alive, I felt it was already too late for me to appreciate the things around me, that’s if I didn’t come out alive. That thought me something which will be what I’ll share with us. Sometimes, we don’t appreciate the things and people around us, maybe because we are offended by them or they do the things we don’t like or something and because of that, we fail to tell them just how much they mean to us and how blessed we are to have them in our lives. On your sick bed, it’s hard to do that. You will only lie there looking at them and saying all the things in your head.
Sadly, sometimes when life gives us another chance, we still fail to use it to appreciate the things and people we know mean so much to us. Appreciating people seems easy when you think of it but actually showing them that you appreciate them is hard. We overthink it and before we know it, we just end up not telling them what we had in mind. Well, need me remind you that time is not on your side. You are the one spending time, time is always going to move in a circle but you can’t do that.
For you to keep something burning - the flame, you have to say things when you get the opportunity because you don’t know what will happen in the next second. It’s not yours neither is it mine to know.
Thank you for reading through. ❤️
This haunted me so.
It took me back to a time when I was in hospital. I was going through extreme anxiety and I thought someone was out there to kill me.
The horrors of the mind when you start to realise that you might not make it out alive; the people you are going to miss, the experiences you'll never have.
You begin to realise that which you take for granted. I used to think of my mother a lot at that age, I was young, still in my very early 20's, and even though my mother annoyed me eternally -- the thought of never seeing her again sent chills down my spine.
Of course, anxiety episodes fade, and with medication I was brought back to normal -- but every experience was now sweetened by 1000x knowing that I had a lifetime to have it all.
It's funny how life and death does this to us.
Good post Hope. We were all rooting for you. I'm really glad you kept fighting!
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It’s really funny how the thin line between life and death gives us the realest lessons because it is only at that point we appreciate even the smallest things around us.
Thank you so much for always rooting for me and for this opportunity, Ray. 🤗
The flame indeed. Let me appreciate you for sharing this amazing piece. It burned deep within me.
That’s life. We almost times tend to appreciate thing only when we lose them. And it’s in human nature wanting to be appreciated.
I am happy you overcame the illness by Gods grace. And you have come to see value in those around you you. We live on. And Hope on..
Abdul! I’m glad it burned deep within you.
Yes. Yes. Whenever we are closer to death it helps us know and appreciate those things and people around us.
Thank you for your comment, Abdul. 🥰
Alas everyone knows life is short but when it comes to appreciating the people around us, we feel we have all the time in the world when we are well aware that the time, the life isn't really ours to keep, we can only manage what we're given. Sadly, we don't often use it well, that's why the graveyard is likened to a treasure trove, full of unfulfilled hopes, dreams, unspoken words......Time indeed waits for no man. Thank you for this wonderful piece.
I love that reminder of the graveyard. Sometimes I wonder the words they wish they had said before their time was up.
It’s my pleasure to remind us of this and I’m really grateful for your beautiful contribution. 🌹
You're welcome 😊.
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Life is too short. Any opportunity we see, we should always embrace it.
That’s right, Favy.
Thank you for stopping by. 🤗
You're welcome
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Keep the flame burning hon!
I will, SUB. 🥰
to be in the present moment is something so important to understand and follow.
the mountains we climb make us so mature.
to your health🌹 and to your flame🔥
You’re right, Opidia. Those mountains are always tough to climb but getting to the top is always a game changer.
Thank you for your burning words! ❤️
We won't realise how powerful words being expressed in actions could be until it is too late and when we can't express them but just stare, or in other cases, when death takes us suddenly. Time is not on our side, and when we have the chance, please, let's do it. I am glad you recovered from your sickness, and please, next time, and not only for sickness, let's be positive about our situations. God is faithful and will always be.
I was positive but I didn’t drive the negative thought because on a second thought, it was actually the positive thought that kept me fighting to come out alive.
It reminded me of a book I read, the battlefield of the mind. Most of our battles are fought in our minds. Even in my negativity, I chose to see positivity in it and I think it helped me recover faster.
Thank you so much for stopping by, mama. 🥰
That is good. Being positive will always keep us going. You are welcome, Hope 😘
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This was a beautiful piece from you Hope stylist.
I know just how and what it feels like, I mean to everything you've said in your post. There are moments I also feel the same way on my sick bed, I start to appreciate everything about my life and in my life, fear grips me at times too that I worry a lot and promise to be a much better person when given another chance at life and a better health.
I cry most of the times too whenever I'm in pain and mostly when I'm sick, those tears usually come running and very hot that I can't even stop them even though I am weak, so you being able to stop your tears because it was taking a lot of energy from you is a good thing.
I am pretty sure you are so much better now and that you appreciate things and people in your life even better now that you have been nursed back to health
It's been a while and I hope everything is going well with you?
I was surprised I couldn’t cry. This is the first time I have been so weak because I’m sick. It felt really different and I guess that’s why.
It’s sad you can relate with what I have experienced but I’m also glad you can relate with it because it means you’ve passed through it and you are not there anymore.
I’m doing really well now, though I still need more rest and food but that’s it.
How have you been?
That's good.
Yeah, I've been just stressed but lately I've been picking up my pieces and doing just fine
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we take some things for granted sometimes and maybe that why we are being tested with witness just to feel how much it is to appreciate good life. I could remember few years back that I was also terribly sick, I was taken drip and at the same time swallowing drugs like it was sort of candy, it got to a time I hated the smell of the drugs but I stayed positive knowing that I will sure get through this and it was just another phase of life. It's always good to always stay positive even when things are bad and I am very glad that you are back on your feets even more stronger than before.
Do you get? Personally I’m not someone to take drugs unless it’s already beyond me and it was just so painful that I have to take drugs, injections and drips too. Anyways, I’m happy I recovered and I’m up and doing again.
Thank you so much for always checking on me. I really appreciate the concern. 🥰