Insomnia
The Bible says, "there's time for everything"
And right now, I think it's my time to rest.
My time to recover, rejuvenate, regain my lost strength
My flesh isn't willing and my body is weak
My spirit is all to eager but I can't lift a finger
It's late at night but the voices seem to be crying with all their might
I'm restless and the heat is driving me senseless
Too many thoughts that I can't coordinate
I wish I could but my mind feels like a maze
It twists and turns till I get lost in a phase
Finding my way out will surely be by God's grace.
No caffeine in my system but still I can't sleep
Being drowsy has got me in my feelings deep
No hallucinogens but clearly I been seeing things
Feeling things, hearing things or maybe I'm just imagining things
I'm trying to recollect my thoughts, gather them in one place
So I can get my sleep at night but all to no avail
They're haphazardly scattered
Damn, they're all over the place
Wild, unhinged, dark and dreary....it could use a flame
Bearing down on me, the weight is making me weary
But I refuse to be broken, no I won't get teary
I refuse to be shackled, yes I'll keep on fighting
I'll go with the wind, yes I'll keep on running
Steady chasing peace cause it's all or nothing.
As I stay up, counting the ceiling
Hearing the soft breaths of those happily dreaming
Craving for that shut eye but scared cause I know I'll see my demons
My struggles, my fears, my insecurities, my lost hopes and dreams, they all come out to taunt me
They jeer and they sneer threatening to choke me.
So my eyes are wide open, vision clearer than the night owl's
Star gazing, I be focused on them night skies
Whilst guarding them who be enjoying their nap time
Almost wishing for that peace that they seem to have
But alas!
I know that some pretend
I know that they have found a means to an end
They've become one with the dark and have come to call it home
While I'm stuck in the middle
Stuck between the voices in my head and the nightmares in my mind
Sometimes I feel myself slipping, drowning
Gasping for air as I struggle to reach the surface
Trying to break free from they who want to pull me to the bottom of the ocean
Here I am, buried in these dark places
Huddled in this dark corners
While I wait
Hoping and praying, that the flame finds me.
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STOPthere are insomnia and there are people thinking they have insomnia because they can not sleep
The Flame found you dear traveller.
Heart and Soul in hand.
Young? Yes, but weren't we all at some point?
Mistakes? Yes, we've all made them.
Interesting that our biggest critics,
Are ourselves.
When you see darkness and clouds all around,
I see an illuminant diamond shining brighter than the sky.
When you see troubled nights and dark thoughts,
I see a deeply thoughtful person who has yet to learn forgiveness.
But you will.
I've done crazy things in my youth.
Things that would make the pope blush.
But this is the dance of life we all must go on.
The craziness of youth, the consolidation of mistakes as we age.
Don't be too hard on yourself,
We were all young once.
These words spoke straight to my soul.....I'll remember this Mr Ray, I surely will. Thank you so much 🥹
That is one powerful poem and reminds me so much of the song I wrote! I love your play on words! How beautiful! You’re truly a Scribe of the Realm!
This legit made me giggle..... I've told you before and I'll tell you again, that song is fire🔥. Thank you Deraa
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This is one beautiful poem.
Thank you 😊
I have only experienced insomnia for one extended period in my life. It was not pleasant. When my body wanted to sleep, I was at work. And when I was at home and off the clock, my body no longer wanted to sleep. My rhythms were all out of whack!
You definitely know the feeling! It could be quite frustrating. Thank you for reading!
I'm currently experiencing this...
For one to write something,they have to have felt it or are still feeling it.....in other words,we writers put our feelings into words. I don't have words that may be of any help to you but I'm going to quote Mr Ray here; "the flame has found you dear traveler". It has found us,all we have to do is follow the light, let it guide us out of the dark.
Take care Lisa and thank you for reading.
The flame finds you when you call out to it sincerely. Do you know one interesting thing about the dark or even a shadow? They can’t withstand even the smallest light, it scares them so much that they worry once it’s close - the light.
I remember when I was at that point in my life, everything just seemed to be against me and I felt completely consumed by the dark. At that moment, I felt like there was no hope. No one was coming to save me. It was the end. I cried for as long as I could remember and at a point, all I have always believed in started coming to me and at that moment I was reminded why knowing was important. We feel more darkness when we know little or less of that aspect of life that keeps eating us. Knowing is the light that drives our darkness away.
I’m not sure if you understand what I have said but I hope you do. In simple words, it is what you know that makes you who you are. So even as we seek after knowledge, it’s good to be weary of what we are knowing more than others and what we don’t know that they know too. They can bring both light or darkness to us.
I understand you a 100% percent, we are indeed what we know. Thank you so much.
I’m glad you do, Ellie. 🥰
You’re welcome.