Sometimes things will never make sense, sometimes I will never understand the things going on around me, sometimes I will never understand why life chooses to be so hard. But it is completely okay to not understand. One thing that has held me back for so long is trying to understand everything including the irrelevant things. I was held back for too long because I wanted to analyse all my failures which looked like a good idea at one point until I realized I was taking too long analyzing them.

These analyses would have also been okay if I wasn’t analyzing my failures into depression. I was being all negative and instead of looking for solutions I was finding more problems and it held me back. Then I started associating with those who have failed like me, when opportunities arise all we begin to talk about is how those opportunities will fail again and thus we stopped jumping on them. Luckily I made a new friend that brought me back to reality and made me understand that failure is a necessity. Something I should never be scared of.
It took me time to realize that all the while me and my friends were talking shit about opportunities thinking we had the experience and knew how they would turn out bad already, we were just afraid of failing again and weren't seeing the possibility of success. After this discovery I have tried things afterwards and failed. I have also succeeded in a few things that I am proud of, But the fact is that I now have a winning mindset with every failure I encounter. Because at the end of the day, I won’t know if it would work if I do not try it. So long it isn’t illegal, So long there is a possibility of success, so long I will grow regardless of if I win or lose, I will definitely try it.
