HATING THE PROCESS

If you ask me whether I love my job right now, my answer will be a big fat YES. I love the thrill and drill it provides. It keeps me busy wondering what I am doing right or wrong and pushes me to be better at my job. But 6 months ago, this wasn’t the case, I was so frustrated with everything going on around me that I allowed myself to sink into despair, then came the realization that with all my years of working, a new admin personnel earns my salary in her probationary period. To be honest I was angry because I could not understand how the hell the HR would do that to me. Then I realized all the staffs due for raise have all gotten except me. I know because I control the company server and am in charge of every mail coming in and out of the server. At first I thought if I was patient mine would come but after about two months I realized the company was not going to give me a raise.

This made my morale drop, it was clear that there was clearly politics going on and when I went to the HR for answers she admitted my name was submitted for a raise but because the new admin is very close to my MDs wife, my name was removed in order to balance the company's account. The HR is a very good friend of mine, and from how she spoke it was clear that she had tried everything to revert it, but it was now beyond her knowing the order came from my MDs wife. At that point I was really disappointed, it felt a system I was working so hard for did not even regard me in the slightest.

With that I started looking for a new Job and I got one which offered me more than my current salary but it officially took my weekends. While I was considering this new Job, my MD suddenly called me alongside the HR and consultant. He called because he noticed the drop in my work rate and wanted to know what was happening. I held nothing back explaining my displeasure as I felt my efforts were not being noticed. This was what brought the whole truth out, He addressed it and now things are better. Turned out the new admin could not handle the pressure in oil and gas and decided to resign, so much for sidelining me lol.

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