I Am #AliveAndThriving Today! || #IAmAliveChallenge || Daily Off-Grid Jungle Journal Entry: Day #1092 - Hyper-Focus, Unhealed Wounds, and a Shift in Perspective - GaiaYoga Gardens, Lower Puna, Far East Big Island, Hawai'i - Thursday, July 24, 2025

I live naked and barefooted, very close to Earth and Nature, in an 18-acre, off-grid, clothing-optional, food-forest intentional community (GaiaYoga Gardens), way out in the jungles of Lower Puna, far East Big Island, Hawai'i, and I have for more than 6 years now. Although there are many challenges, I love my life, and I'm immensely grateful to live where and how I do, on my own terms! I would not want to live any other way! 😁🙏💚⚡💥🔥✴️✳️❇️👣🌱✨🤙

Warm greetings all! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

This is another one of those posts that I don't even know how or where to begin, as there's so much to try to put into words. I've been absolutely, rock-solid committed, dedicated, determined, consistent, and relentlessly tenacious on Hive for years now, all-in as I say, and while a big part of that hyper-focus is indeed inspired and motivated by my deep love and passion for, and my belief in this extraordinary Blockchain Ecosystem, there is also a notable part of it that stems from my own inner wounds that I don't yet know how to heal, that come from many deeply painful experiences that I've been through over the past several years.

Since I have, and do, feel so much pain in different areas of my life, that I don't know how to resolve and reconcile, I refocused much of my time, energy, and efforts on Hive, in part because it has honestly been one of the very few solidly consistent, stable, dependable, reliable, meaningful, inspiring, motivating, satisfying, and fulfilling parts of my life since I found it. This speaks greatly of Hive, and quite poorly of my own life.

This 50/50, just-good-enough experience of my life is the cage that I've built around myself from coming to believing that certain things aren't possible for me anymore, which makes me pull away and withdraw from them, as I resign myself to my partially-depressing reality and fate. Just ouch. Even reading that hurts my heart. I've just come to feel that me in my present state irrevocably means that some things are still possible, and other important things are now impossible.

My beliefs about myself are mirrored perfectly in my daily life, both the beautiful and the ugly, the kind and the uncaring, the sweet and the disgusting, the enjoyable and the agonizing, with an often sad predominance of the negative tomermenting my mind. I'm getting the strong inner nudges that a very significant shift in my perspective of myself is what is necessary now.

I've radically shifted my perspective on, and my beliefs about myself a few notable times in my life, and every time my direct experience of life has shifted faithfully with it. That sticks in my mind so much now. Living here, I somehow semi-forgot that my beliefs create the experience in my life, even after having had lived it in practical terms, and multiple times. An easefully simple, and incredibly difficult, shift in perspective and belief about myself is what I am called to make.

Yesterday, Thursday, I left the Flow House, after finishing up my Hive tasks, around 2:15PM. I had intended to do some photography for my posts first, but the weather was less than ideal, so I went to collect coconut water and coconut meat from a whole bunch of young coconuts, to prepare a new medium to ferment 3 more rounds of kefir. A new fellow here, asked if I'd like some help with the process, so he ended up assisting me for a while removing coconut meat from the chopped coconuts. When I finally had kefir done, I went to my nursery behind the Landing to pot up a bunch of uprooted tobacco seedlings, that a woman with whom I work in sessions brought me as a gift. With that completed, I made my way to the other side of the property, to the fenced garden next to Kana's place, to check up on a few important plants. Chelsea was there, and we ended up talking about plants for a while. I also gave her a tour of a part of the property that she had not visited yet, to show her the hala forest, and Melekai's place, the Kuti, on the edge of the jungle. Once I bid farewell to Chelsea, I headed back across the property, to stop by the Landing to collect my jar of superfood fire coffee from the fridge, and with that in hand, to return to the Flow House, to ease into my evening Hive tasks, and catching up on my notifications. I got through everything by just before 10PM, and after some asset management, a scan of my X feed, and some unexpected technical issues on my laptop, I went to bed way too late, just before 1AM. Sadly I wasn't able to sleep at all last night, finally getting out of bed around 7AM, doing more asset management, going to the Landing to make my superfood fire coffee, then returning to the Flow House to write this post. It's now just before 12PM, so an excellent time to wrap this up, so that I may get to my other few important Hive tasks, before preparing for a session that's scheduled for 1:30PM. I deeply appreciate y'all so very much! Until tomorrow's version of these posts! Always forward, onward, upward, and whaleward, ho, together we go! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

2025 Life Goals

1.) Do regular integral practices again, alone or with others.

2.) Prepare regular batches of my medicinal teas collected from the land again.

3.) Make my plant nursery, and the gardens, beautiful again.

4.) Begin learning relevant coding/programming languages to more fully contribute to the sovereignty-driven technologies where I am active, like Arch Linux, Hive, Qortal, DeSo, and Bastyon.

All photos were taken with my Motorola G Play 2024 Android Phone.

Thank you all so much who have helped me get to where I am today, and allowing me to share more of the beauty and magic from my life and my world with you, and for your continuous appreciation and support! I am truly deeply grateful! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

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