Loving What Slowly Breaks Me.

I have grown to realize that it's in our nature as humans to deal with an addiction, it's just a weakness, even when we try to be discipline and deliberate about being a better persons, you find yourself fulfilling those desires.
Even when we know the consequences of the action, we still find it difficult to minimize how we indulge. Personally, there are many things I'm guilty of, these are things that occur daily and I know how harmful these things might be to my mental and physical health but still find myself indulge daily.
These things include sleeping for less than eight hours every night, drinking caffeine, taking carbonated drinks and constantly eating junks, late night meal , even eating excessively most times and many other.
I have tried to discipline myself to stop these harmful habits but it hasn't been an easy journey, because I'm always fall guilty of one of these periodically, I lack discipline in most of these aspects and it's really painful, but difficult to quit.

Staying up late is an habit I really want to stop, because it has really affected my health lately, led to constant headaches and dizziness during the day, makes me less efficient and productive during the day. Most times I stay up seeing a movie or scrolling through YouTube and most of these thing aren't very relevant , I should only stay awake when there's a relevant reason.
This is an habit that started when I was a student, staying up at night to read and meet up with assignments and other task, but now my work activities takes my day not night, I have had better things to do with the night hours but the body needs rest because it worked throughout the day.
Staying up late is an habit I need to quit, prioritize my rest at night, a proper rest for 8 hours and even more.
Staying up will always make me consume snacks and most times eat at night and that hasn't helped me in anyway, considering how lazy it has been for me to exercise lately, I need minimize how I feed late at night .
Lastly, it's also affecting my sight, constantly viewing the screen in the dark, when I'm supposed to be sleeping.
These is definitely the first habit I need to stop, it might be pleasurable but it's causing obvious effects to me .

The second habit or addiction I need to work on is the constant abuse of carbonated drinks and consumption of noodles.
Each time I scroll through the Internet I find videos about noodles and the how harmful noodles could be to our health due to the preservatives used in production, I plan never to go back to noodles, but it's almost impossible, those information fall on deaf ears, I consume noodled a lot, I can remember eating noodles for complete two weeks back in school, it was non stop and the consequences was severe, that was the last time I gave it a longest break, but I never stopped.
Well this year I have been very deliberate about this decision, been minimizing how I consume noodles and also eating more vegetables, balanced and proper meals.
Lastly, is carbonated drinks, dealing with this is almost impossible, I have full knowledge of the consequences but resisting a cold coca-cola or fanta is almost impossible.

Reflecting on this now, I have been dwelling in habits that slowly ruins my health and I really need to do better for my own good , I need to inculcate discipline and stop giving excuses. I need to do better.

First picture is AI generated.
Second and third picture belongs to me.

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