EMBER MONTHS ISN'T A DEADLINE, JUST KEEP DOING YOUR BEST.

Ever since I became an adult, whenever it's ember months, which is the last quarter of the year, there's this pressure and sadness I feel.
It really gets worse when the year is about to end, during the last month, I usually feel I haven't achieved my goals and dreams for the year, even when I have ticked half of the plans in my list.
It gets so bad , that I feel really moody, compare myself with others and cry so much .
Most times , I don't even appreciate the little achievements I have made earlier.
At some points I felt I was really ungrateful to the people who love me and to God.

I have dealt with this troubles for long, not until I met a good friend, who helped me overcame this fears and struggles, who taught me to create attainable goals and my goals doesn't need to fill a paper.
And , that was the beginning of courage and peace, and then I began to understand life better, learnt to focus on what is achievable.
I have understood that I have to be grateful and thankful at all time, I have to appreciate the little I do and put in more effort in what I find doing , instead of creating a deadline for myself.

I entered this year with a better mindset, and after writing my goals for the year, I prayed everything will be actualized, but I also told myself that there's no pressure, I will be grateful and also work hard to achieve my goals, but learning to act this way wasn't an easy one.

The first quarter of the year was full of ups and downs, I had terrible experiences, especially with jobs and scholarship applications , most times I get sad and depressed about some experiences I had as a fresh graduate with lots of expectations.
I'm forever grateful to my mom and my friend who had made this journey an easy and sweet one for me.
I had some experiences that really got me tired, humbled me , taught me to love myself more and appreciate every moment.
At some point, I got tired of always learning lesson from myself.
It got really bad, that I had to sit, cross my legs and stopped pushing hard, but never stopped dreaming big.

It's really funny and unexpected that I'm not currently working at my dream place, but I keep telling myself, I will get there, I have not stopped applying and won't stop applying.
Also had the plan of owning and launching my own perfume shop this year, I'm yet to achieve that, and even if I don't achieve it this year , then I will next year, there's no pressure and I keep being optimistic.
One of my primary focus is growing my poultry business and learning more about poultry and fishery, I just realized agriculture is a good source of income in my country, and not embraced by many youths.

For the rest of the year, I would also focus on applying for my masters and other job opportunities, with the help of my academic mentor.
And also put my best in what I do, learn to be grateful and appreciative, and embrace every phase of life with optimism.

Thanks for reading ♥️

PICTURE IS MINE.

Vanilla 💗