WHAT MATTERS MOST

It might look like I do not really care what people think of me, but the truth is that I do care, but not in the way people think. I like to know what people think about me not because I allow it to define me, but because it helps me access myself. I could care less if someone decides to hate me for something I can’t change about myself, and I could really care if someone thinks I am good at something I am trying to improve on. The knowledge of what they think at that point makes me know if I am progressing or not. I do not shy away from the truth about myself, I always want to know, and to be honest, sometimes it is a bitter pill to swallow, and other times it is a thing of pride. For example, recently I have been getting positive comments about my new look, and it’s been encouraging because it was something I really wanted to change from the beginning.

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I have also gotten bad remarks in the past for things I was trying to improve on, instead of discouraging me from what I was working on, it strengthened my resolve to want to make it work. I guess it is because I don’t react to negativity, I try to be positive always and it makes me want to always strive to be better instead of sulking when someone makes negative comments about me. This attitude wasn’t really easy to develop you know, it took me a lot to really get to this point, I mean developing a tough skin to negativity. I would not even say I am perfect at it yet, because depending on who is making the comment, depends on how I react. I remember when my mum made a negative comment about me some years back, she called me lazy and insensitive in a time when I was trying to be hard working. Her comment almost killed my morale, I mean if it was coming from a stranger I would say they never knew me, but this was coming from my own mother.

I am a positive person, I try to always be positive, I try to always think about it, even when things do not look like they are, I try to always make others feel safe even in the most trying times, this is why I know I am someone anyone would be lucky to have on their side. I am not talking romantically, but in all works of life. I am a great team player. I do not mind working behind the scenes and another taking the glory, so long the job is done. This is my opinion about myself and so far I am yet to meet a person who disagrees with me. It’s not because I am the best at what I do, I know I can’t brag about that, but I try to make everyone around me look and feel good.

THIS IS MY RESPONSE TO HIVE LEARNER'S PROMPT FOR WEEK 210 EPISODE 1