GROWING UP

15 years ago I was still in secondary school, a young boy who imagined to have had a good job and gotten married already. I even had a picture of an imaginary fair lady in my mind and sometimes I would just smile at myself as I imagined how my life would be. 10 years ago, my mentally had changed. All I was thinking about was getting into the higher institution and graduating with first class. I had completely changed at that time from who I was raised to be, but I was somewhat focused and knew there were things I did not want to joke with and one of them was my education. Although I played a lot then and had often taken life unseriously, there were things I was very serious with until I faced some life threatening situations that made me take everything more seriously than before. That was the period I found a new found fate and started a new path that completely changed the course of my life.

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After 7 years I found myself in situations that made me doubt all my beliefs and made me make certain experimental decisions that have brought me to the point where I am. I started to test the authenticity of all my beliefs and I even lost myself in the process. At a point I forgot who I used to be, and became someone else entirely. To be honest the last 10 years of my life has been nothing short of a rollercoaster of events with a whole lot of mistakes and lessons to learn from. Events that affected my relationship life which has gotten better, my financial life which is still getting better, my emotional life which has gotten even more better, my spiritual life which sadly has declined, my educational life which has gotten better. I remember there was a time where I was all spiritual and had little time for worldly things, not that it was bad, but then one day I asked myself a simple question, what do I really want to be? That was when I discovered that I was on the wrong path.

The wrong path wasn’t that I was doing the wrong things, but that I wasn’t doing the things that really mattered for the future I envisioned for myself. I knew a lot spiritually but very little about life, and I knew if I must achieve the things I really wanted to achieve, there must be a balance. For the last 5 years I have been striving to make that balance and to be honest it hasn’t been easy because when I try to rise in one aspect, I see that I’m failing in another. At a point it even became frustrating, but now I know it’s all part of the growth process. I have begun to truly comprehend the balance I was striving for, and although I have not fully actualized it, I know I am on the right path, and with time I will get even better.

THIS IS MY RESPONSE TO HIVE LEARNER'S
PROMPT FOR WEEK 183 EPISODE 2