WHEN IT FALLS APART

To be honest, the first thing that comes to my mind anytime I see the word promise, I see it as something that won’t end well. I have made so many promises to people, some of which I was able to meet up with and others I kept having regrets about them. One thing I have come to realize is that most of the promises that are made, are made out of haste and lack of thorough thinking. We make promises just to get off the hook for a while and we forget that he who runs away from a fight will live to fight another day. Others make promises because they forget about life. They somehow just think they are in control of time as per doctor strange, lol.

Well, with all that in mind, the hivelearners prompt for this new week’s first edition has invited us to talk about A BROKEN PROMISE. There has been so many times I have broken the promises I have made to people even to myself. Most of them, I felt guilty about it and the others, I tried to feel justified for my actions. The truth is, these days, so many people are scared of making promises and that is because it feels almost impossible to keep a promise. To me, at some point I thought it was impossible to keep a promise because I kept breaking most of them.

One interesting thing I have learnt about making promises is that at that point, we most times forget that we are not in charge. We make promises as if we know what tomorrow holds but unfortunately, life always reminds us that it is not in our power to make decisions for tomorrow or even the next minute. Whenever I make a promise, I always remind myself and the person that it might not happen because I know how tricky making a promise can be. At a point, I even promised myself not to make promises but I can’t even count how many times I have broken that promise I made to myself.

The last promise I made to someone that I can remember very well I broke was that I was going to visit them and cook for them. I would have loved to tell you the whole story but I won’t so you can have a lot of questions to ask, haha. Well, apparently, now I can never fulfill that promise to them. Well, maybe I can but the chances are very slim. After that experience, I remember promising myself never to make promises again and here we are. I can’t remember how many times I have promised @justfavour that I won’t do some things again. I pray he doesn’t give up on me though.

I feel a little bit justified about breaking that promise to them because I didn’t want to promise that in the first place but I was in a tight spot and I just gave in. And besides that, I wasn’t really free at the time to move up and down due to my exams and stress from school. With the little opportunities I had, I preferred using it to rest and do some work that can fetch me some money for personal upkeep. I’m very sure they understand that very well so I’m no longer feeling guilty but I’d like to keep to that promise someday if God wills’.

A promise that was broken to me was when a friend promised to give me a phone only for him to later change his mind because I had a phone. According to him, he doesn’t make use of it and he doesn’t even need it and that was why I asked him to give it to me and he agreed only for him to change his mind the next day. Well, I didn’t care too much because it was almost feeling too good to be true. Although I had plans of giving the phone to my sister but too bad it never came.

For me, I’ll say there are so many valid reasons to a broken promise and that’s why I just prefer to refrain from making promises. We can never really know what is going on with the other person who has made us a promise that is about to get broken. Except the person is just wicked, if not, most people don’t enjoy breaking their promises. One major valid reason or factor for broken promises is the life factor. No one knows what tomorrow holds, not even the next second so it’s only normal that most promises won’t hold water. I’m tired of trying to explain myself whenever I break a promise and I’m still trying to break free completely from the act of making promises and just do what I can when I should.

Thank you for reading through. ❤️