The Line I Crossed Without Noticing

In one of the two people I have come across, either online or physically. There is usually this particular moment that takes place in the lives of people who are chasing money, especially in my country, and only a few people talk about it in an honest way. We all are chasing after the bag just to survive and do one or two things, and that is totally reasonable. We've all got bills to be paid.

People who randomly call us for help, especially some of us still with younger siblings. And to be honest, this is not just an imaginary thing, because the pressure is so real and physical. But have you ever felt the shift in the middle of that chadiy? I mean, the reason for the change? And if I look at it deeply, most people always miss that particular moment when it happened.

And personally, I have noticed this myself when things slightly got improved for me. I got a bit better than I was before, not in a big way, but in a grateful way. Not in a way that I have everything figured out or am wealthy. But in a way that I know that some things have been settled for me to start fearing them.

But along the way, the hunger started to increase because I wanted more even before properly receiving what I just fought for. And at some point, I had to question myself: Who am I really doing this for? Because it looks like the original need has turned into something else. Some parts were good, some were about fear of having nothing, and some part was about what I was seeing online.

And what most people usually discover too late is the rat race is a real trap. And you know one thing about that trap: it will never catch you when your feet are still shaking. It traps you when you are standing firm, because at that moment the goalposts will start shifting quietly so your attention won't even be there.

And I have decided to focus myself on one uncomfortable question because that is what keeps me grounded. And that question is, what am I trying to feel actually? When I look deeper, it was never about the money but about respect, security, and proving something to someone who might not even have the time to watch. At that moment when I finally got to know the actual feeling underneath the chase, it lost some of its blind urgency.

Just like me, I am of the opinion that we all accept the moment is very important. I will never pretend that it is not, most especially in a situation where it obviously changes lives. But when we continue chasing it without asking ourselves the real question, that is when the notion of exhaustion, clothed in ambitious clothes, sets in.
And i will aslo add. Everything should be for a purpose, because some have the money eventually and they are not happy. While some don't even have it, but they are filled with life.

Thank you for reading.

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