Embracing Age and Wisdom

Time goes by, and the only thing constant is change. I was pondering today while making a dress of the person I am today, I even took a further step to look myself in the mirror, which had a picture of myself of over a year ago attached to the sides, mehn, this small girl has gone through a lot over the years,I said this out loud to myself, then I wondered if my younger self saw me then, what would I have done better.

15 years ago, I was already done with secondary school and as expected has dreams I wished to achieve, and sure tried my best following the supposed paths to my dreams, only if I knew that life's path is not always a straight lane, maybe I would have prepared myself better for the stumbles along the way. Above all, I think my younger self would be proud of how I became strong and resilient in the midst of all the hardships life threw my way.

The depressing times I overcame, the happy moments I basked in, the skills I learned, and self and emotional development. It is okay then, when I say what didn't pull me down made me stronger. I'm not yet where I wished to be, still I'm grateful for not being where I used to be. My current self is wiser, stronger, and more financially capable of holding responsibilities I never thought I could handle in the past. That's growth, and it's a beautiful thing.

I believe the two significant points in my life that caused a drastic change are motherhood and being financially independent. Motherhood is a marvellous experience for every woman who gets the chance to experience it, being gifted with a bundle of joy that developed within you for months is mindblowing, yet, as great as this experience is, it never leaves you the same, even though I look good on the outside and often get mistaken for someone in her early 20s, my body isn't the same as i was, to top it all, I have now been added to the grey hair brethrens, some say it's the genes that causes the early sprouting of grey hair, while otherd believe it is caused by stressed, in my opinion I think it's a mix of the two, so here i am today rocking it proudly as it comes, embracing the wisdom and experience that comes with age.

20 years back,I didn't even have a clue of how to earn an income for myself and was fully dependent, but today, being financially independent has given me a sense of security, and freedom to make deliberate choices. It has allowed me to pursue my passions, to invest in myself and my future, and not have to wait for someone's help.

At the end of it all, it is not about our number of years, but about our small everyday moments that shape us. All of which contribute to the person we have become today. Looking at myself in the mirror today, I see a person who is still growing and learning. And that's okay because life is a journey, not a destination. I'm not the same person I was fifteen years ago, and I'm grateful for that. I've lived, I've loved, I've laughed, and I've cried. I've stumbled, I've fallen, and I've gotten back up again.

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