Wishes unfulfilled
Someone once said that a bucket list is for people who are about to die, probably due to a deadly disease and knowing they may not survive, they create a bucket list to make them fulfilled before they are gone. How mundane that statement is. A bucket list can be anything we want, just depends on our individual perspectives and no one is dying for having a bucket list.
My top three bucket lists are dear to my heart, that too I want to fulfill it before the end of this year. No one knows about it except myself but now hive is also knowing about it. It dawned on me that I will be clocking a significant age in a month time and I've not really been living the life I want too. I know I have impacted a few people over time but this year I want it to be intentional not just creating impact but developing my own self educationally and in a very good skill.
First on my list is to invest in educational and inspirational literature including Christian materials. And I will be going for hard cover books. I already know my type of person, I hate reading soft copies. I know we are in a digital world but we must always tell ourselves the truth, it is not everybody that is good at reading via devices and I'm one of them. Currently I have over 20 unread books saved on my PDF so I have to stop decisiving myself. The goal is to get four before the year end not borrowing, like buying with my own money. I will say it's a way of gradually starting my own personal library.
Secondly, it is giving back to society in my own little way. Mind you, I am not in any way thinking of starting a charity organization. It is just a burden in my heart which happens to be second on my bucket list. I'm not doing this on the street, the focus is school children. I learned that government schools pay less than 8k per term so I'm sacrificing the money I will use to buy shawarma and chilled hollandia yogurt to support a child. Nothing is coming online but this will definitely make me more than satisfied and worth living knowing fully well someone is in school because of me.
And last on my bucket list is to get a new apartment here in school. I've been staying in my current house for the past one year alone, but I strongly believe it's time for me to move out to a new location. The house feels like a cage to me and has caused me so much trauma. Sometimes I don't even sleep well because of one thing and the other. No access to fellowship with my fellow brothers in Christ especially Sundays because it's a Muslim environment so I have to pay half my weekly transportation through and fro to school only on Sundays to worship else no church for me. At first I was just joining service online but it can never be the same as a physical one. This is one reason I want to move out and I hope it happens soon.