A grateful heart

It is bad enough that we are already going through a lot from the economic crisis that has made living a survival, so the least anyone can do for themselves is to find happiness in the little things that matters. I have come to realize that happiness doesn't really matter in the size it comes but how we choose to embrace it whether big or small and it all depends on the individual.

There are so many things that are currently bringing me happiness and first on my list is gratitude. Gratitude is appreciating the little at hand while looking forward to receiving a bigger and better blessing. So many times we fail to appreciate the things we have achieved because the big one we want hasn't arrived and when that mindset starts to dominate you, it creates space for depression. I know how long I prayed to gain admission to further my education but it kept lingering. I waited for 6 whole years before I entered the higher institution gate for the very first time in my entire life. When my admission came, I was happy, it felt like a dream that my prayers had been answered. Honestly speaking, it took a while to adjust in school and that was the very week of my first semester exams.

So prior to writing my second semester exams, a lot happened. I felt like a failure, school meant nothing to me...like I was surprised cause I was not supposed to treat my studies casually and if I'm being truthful, depression almost had a grip on me. For some days I kept calling myself a failure, my relationship wasn't working fine despite how much I secured it, no substantial source of income and so many things all joined together considering the age I was turning into. Honestly I was beginning to think ending it at once was the right thing to do. But something kept happening during this trying period, I find myself advising people on different issues. This person will call and say pray for me, the other with one relationship problem I will advise and they come back to say thank you.

My shoulder became a resting place but on my own end I was fighting my own battle. I don't know how God did it, but he really helped me. I started counting my blessings one by one. The realization that I was not a failure came, like I literally knew I was important once again and then gratitude became a thing. Then I know happiness is not just about the big things but the little wins while still pursuing the big things. I am grateful for so many things, my family for their support. my education, to the glory of God I'm doing good, the little relationship I've built with some individuals that stood the test of time and is still standing strong today and others. I have always known gratitude is important but you only realize it is non-negotiable when certain things happen.

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