Just Being Me.
The way that I see myself is actually not the same way that others see me, and I think that it is the same for everyone, alot of people can relate to that,even if they do not say it out, so personally I do describe myself as a person who's non chalant,I keep to myself,I handle my issues quietly, and truth be told sometimes it is not like I do that intentionally, I just find myself like that and yes i do prefer it that way, calm not overreacting, and not too much noise about anything , and because of that I have assumed that this is the same way that people will see me, the way I see myself , or the way I try to portray myself to people, someone who is just there doing his own thing, that doesn't care much about things that are not relevant to him, someone who doesn't get involved in affairs of people.
But overtime, i started hearing from different peel how they think I am a caring person,that I am different in a good kind of way, some of my friends say that I am caring, that I am down to earth,others say I am someone that actually pays attention to things, and thst i always find a way to show up, whenever I hear things I'm surprised because it's seriously not how I have put myself to be in the eyes of people, because in my mind I am not even doing anything, I am just being myself, that is the person I am.
So I realised something, and that is sometimes we do not notice things about ourselves, but others noticed those things for us, and for me that don't express my emotions loudly or openly, i still try to show care in my own little way, maybe it is through my actions, or in the way that I listen to people or the way I do show up without my knowing , but others do see it and it counts , So in that sense the way I see myself and the way that others see me is not completely the same way, I see someone who's quiet and reserved, they see someone who's calm, caring and grounded, So at the end of the day, I don't actually mind or care what others think about me, I don't allow it define my life, because of course it can true, but I still don't allow why they think decide how my life is, yes I do appreciate the good things that they have to say about me, it is always nice to be seen in a good light,I also do not want to start acting differently just to match people's expectations, I try to be myself alwys without trying to overdo anything , I don't force any emotions and I don't pretend to be someone I am not and that the last thing I will ever do, I believe people see ans understanding me the way they want to
At the time hearing how people describe me has helped me reflect a little, it made me realize that even if I do not show emotions in the way it does not mean I do not have them.. Maybe just maybe it is okay to express myself a bit more sometimes, Not because people expect it, Because it can help me connect better with the people around me and that is the person I want to be.
So yeah, the way I see myself and the way others see me might be different. I think that is normal. Everyone has their perspective, What matters to me is staying true to myself keeping things and not overthinking it too much, because at the end of the day long as I know who I am other opinions will just be what they are opinions, about me.