A Lost Comeback & Ria's First Day Of School

Hello hive world 🤗 and to this wonderful community @asean.hive its been a while. Honestly I'm not really that busy, it's better to say that I lost my focus and concentration. I didn't expect that I'll be going to this kind of situation. Two years as blogger in a hive writing my story, continuely joining in different contests just to have a contribution. I already accept that Im not that good enough but to burn the negative feelings inside me makes me feel a lot more downer. I just went to the point that I'm lost, I'm tired, like there's nothing I can do, I might have but still not good enough, for what? For myself? My family? Im not this before, this is not me but I still feel the difference.

I thought I'll be inspired to see my husband endure his problems. It's like I've changed him like me, smiling to problems, never giving up despite of how hard life is. I never thought how strong I am to laugh at my own problems. Unlike now I'm rolling my hair like a crazy one 🤣. Using my favorite my emoji 🤣 I describe it as laughing while crying. I can't help but pity him but at the same time hate him for accusing me to much. Sometimes I can't feel any trust but I love him all my life. And till now love is still unconditional, for me no one will able to explain it, it has a trillion of definition or more. Even feelings can't say anything about it. I think I'm much better now, I wanted to start all over again, me before is not only a part of me but it's me all the time. While the present me needs more help of me before. All is a lesson that I'm proud to learn about.

Today Monday marks the second week of Ria in school. Because of the endless flooding in our place the first week was focused on modular activity. I can't explain how happy Ria was, she didn't even cry after me and @katsuki29 left her in their room. But some of her classmates made a lot of drama LoL 😅. I'm sorry but in Ria's three elder siblings never cried after I brought them in school. They see a lot of kids cried but they feel a lot more excited to learn than to cry and waste time.

I even caption my post on social media account
Simple house
Simple Life
But I know you have the biggest dreams

Seeing my family makes me want to meet the next version of my self, but this time a lot better 1ne 😉

*XoXo, @usagigallardo015 💋