The Fear of Being a Beginner and Why It Matters

There is something I need to do soon, for myself and for the good of every person around but I've been procrastinating when to start and the reason, after reflecting and understanding what it is, is that I am scared to be a beginner. As silly as it may sound, not everyone enjoy being beginner.

I am one of them even though I tend to tell myself that I am not like that. I mean, I like to learn new things and I find so much excitement in doing the learning but somehow, I slow down or even take a long and unending rest when it comes to putting into practice, being a beginner.

It's a dilemma when I love the other side of where I am, being good at something I admire but doing the work to get there means being bad at it first. Maybe I do have the spirit of perfectionism, it's one of the enemies to people who have to become a beginner or be bad at something first.

Not choosing to be beginner means a lot of things and the scariest part is, you'd miss out on a new becoming, a new lifestyle, an opportunity and you'd be stuck in a phase of life that no longer fits. Starting over is different from being a beginner but it's still one thing I struggle with.

In that spirit, I want to remind myself the benefits of being a beginner or starting over. It's uncomfortable but it's an opportunity to create a room for growth that is hard to access any other way. So here are five things I'm reminding myself.

Being a beginner will give me a fresh perspective: I have had experiences with this already, I'm no longer focused on "how things have always been" but focused on questioning old patterns, rethink decisions and approaching things with clarity.

Being a beginner removes the pressure to be perfect: We can not be perfect and choosing to be a beginner gets rid of the weight of high expectations. There's also the willingness to take in new ideas and feedbacks for a fast learning.

Being a beginner builds resilience and reinvents who I am: I get curious when I have to be a beginner, it's exciting and if I don't let fear of being a beginner take over, I get to be resilient and give myself the permission to become someone new. And this way, I let go of what doesn't fit. Being a beginner is a great chance.