The Weight Only My Mind Can Carry// LOH Contest #297.

Recently when I went home for the holidays I didn't just hear stories about people that died probably through slumping or any other means but I saw those incidents, I have seen the individuals days before they died and just before you know what's happening, you will hear that the person slumped and died at the spot, many of this incident left me rethinking what life is really all about? In one of those days I even had to start imagining that so that's the end of watching movies for these set of individual, the reality dawned heavy on me.

So in those moments a family that I am kind of close to, more like I know them really well, the husband slumped at his place of work and died, it left me speechless when I finally saw his burial poster, the way keep came and the burial also came but I couldn't bring myself to go to the family, I couldn't put my words or myself together to even say anything to the woman, so I didn't go to see her till I left back for school, this kind of situation has happened to me severally that I wouldn't be able to find the right words to say to someone grieving or to be able to comfort them well, don't get me wrong I understand what they are going through and I also feel their pain, I get how it's to get up one morning and start living life without the one person that made it comfortable but what should I be saying when I set my eyes on that wiping and torn you, am I meant to say sorry? Hard luck?.

Maybe one day I would find the right words but right now I am just speechless, which brings me to stating that emotions or feelings I find difficult to open up about, consoling someone who's grieving over someone is the hardest for me, and for me I feel like there's no perfect words to say to the person so I just don't say anything inorder not to sprout up emotions. Just thinking about the person loss or even talking about it makes the fear of inevitability of death and not seeing the person ever again begin to increase in my mind, it makes me want to face those demons or fears I have being hiding from.

We definitely weren't taught how to grieve with or console someone who lost their loved ones but we were taught how to provide solutions to problems or even offer advice, but the thing with grieve is that it isn't fixable so that helpless feeling that you can't really do anything to make this moment disappear is the kind that makes you just want to grieve from afar, what helps to make it easier at that moment is just presence, the best I can do or offer is just to be there for the person without saying much, just sit down on the floor with the person and weeping together, sharing jokes to lighten the mood of the person and lots more, to me I believe that's how best I can come in.

Thank you all for sharing this moment with me, atleast I wouldn't grief alone this time 😁.

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