Falling But Not Staying Down

Sometimes last year around that October , November period, I can honestly say that I was at one of my lowest points in life, see seriously I had so much going on with me both physically and emotionally, and it just felt like everything was just piling up on my head like that, and on top of that too, exams were around the corner, and I knew that I had to focus and direct my energy into reading, but truthfully, it just was not coming together at all, I would sit with my books, but my mind was not fully there, the fear of failure was just eating me up, and it was something I really didn’t want to face, especially in my school, Yabatech, i didn’t want any issues that would make me repeat a course or delay my progress there at all.
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And so, with all that fear in me, I tried to channel whatever energy I had left into reading as much as I could, see let me tell you that It wasn’t easy, but I just kept reminding myself that if I did not push myself now, the regret later would be heavier, so now fast forward to when the results came out, my heart sank deeply, What I feared actually happened, My CGPA dropped by two points and normally, it should have gone up, but instead, it went down, see I wont lie, I felt really really bad, It was like all the struggles, all the nights I forced myself to sit down with my books didn’t even matter.

But here is the thing, even in that moment when I felt so very low, something inside me shifted, instead of staying down and sulking about it, I told myself that this drop wasn’t going to define me, yes... It hurt, yes, but it also pushed me, I used that disappointment as a fuel to work harder for my next exams, that was where my top moment came in, when I picked myself up, focused better, and actually studied with a clearer mind, I started seeing results that made me proud of myself again.

And looking back now, I realize life really comes with ups and downs, sometimes you think you have got it all figured out, but then one result, one mistake, or one setback will now remind you that you are still figuring things out, But you see the truth is, it is not about how many times you fall, it is about how many times you rise again.

Actually mentally, it wasn’t easy, I had to constantly talk to myself, reminding myself that this was not the end of the world, i also leaned on a few encouraging words from friends who understood what I was going through and slowly, I kept reminding myself that life is not a straight line, it is indeed full of curves.

And the biggest lesson I learned was that failure or setbacks do not mean you are not capable, they just mean you have to adjust, push harder, and stay consistent, sometimes, that very low point is what prepares you for your greatest comeback.

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