I HAVEN’T READ ENOUGH
As a student, I tell myself so many lies just to make me feel okay. It has always been a bad thing for me to always tell myself I’m not doing anything right. I always downplay my actions even when others think I’m doing well. In school, I easily feel pessimistic about my grades. I find myself always doubting how well I’ll do after an exam because deep down, I feel I haven’t read enough.
One lie that I always tell myself as a student then and even now is that “I won’t do well in a certain course.” It is a lie because by the grace of God, I haven’t failed any courses since my years in school. Well, I tell myself that lie because for some reasons, it pushes me to give my best. When I know I’m not doing well at something, I always tell myself the worse part of it so I’ll be sure to prepare better.
Another lie I know I tell myself sometimes too is that I’ll read starting from the first week of resumption, but then I only end up reading towards when my exams are close. Right now, I’m in my final year in school, and this is my last opportunity to do better and most especially, stop lying to myself about these things and just do the work. Interestingly, this session feels like it will be different because I plan to give it my all. After all, it’s my last session as an undergraduate of Physiology.
Today, the HOD (head of department) came to give us a lecture on our performances for the last session, and his review of us as final year students was really sad. He encouraged us to take things more seriously this session because it’s our only chance to get it right. I really pray and hope to do my best and do really well. Right now, the only challenge I’m foreseeing is balancing work and schooling, but by God’s grace, I know He will lead me all the way.
There was a time when I was really consistent with doing things, and I remember telling a friend how I’m praying that I’ll carry that same attitude into my studies. I’m praying that I’ll be able to start that this semester. I want to be honest with myself to feel good and not telling myself any more lies. I believe that I can do it as long as I stay consistent, so I’m just going to keep the pace.
This is my response for the Hive student prompt. Thank you for reading through. 💜
I will say we are both the same. Whenever we are close to our school resumption I will tell myself that I must start reading if i want a good grade but I only find myself reading when exams are close. Though I always read before exam time but not that much. And also, there are times that if I write test or exam I always tell myself that have already fail but to the glory of God, I always find myself pass the test or exam, even the hardest exam I always pass it and have never for once have any carry over. I'm also in my final year, I'm trying my best to make sure to pass all my test and exams because this last year is the hardest year, so I pray God Almighty will help us and grant us mercy.
My sister, that's just the prayer. Let Gpd continue to give us an excellent spirit.
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Sending you some Ecency curation votes!
Thank you, Mel. 🥰
I also tell myself this lie “I haven’t read enough” I think you are right cause whenever I say this, I tend to study enough, this lie helps me push harder though.
Yes. That lie pushes most of the time.
The only reason it's a lie it's because I end up doing well if not, it's not. 😂
If you think you are not reading enjoy then it's the reality. Never think you are doing great just because others saying you are doing great. They are not the determiners.
I don't make anyone the determinant - my results are.
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Wow, that's Great.
Good to see the lie you told yourself is one that pushes you to do better.
Thanks for sharing.
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It’s my pleasure sharing! Thank you for stopping by. 🥰
Very much welcome ma'am 😊