Dusted!

Done and dusted!

Is that the right term for it?

I’m finally done with my exams and I can’t even begin to emphasize how happy I am to be done. I made a post on my status that while I was grateful for the academic year, I hope it never repeats itself again. Because one thing I can say about the session that is over, is how trying it was.

This session tested me in more ways than one. In my academics, my social life, finances and everything in between. I saw a lot, experienced a lot, and generally had to survive through a lot, and most of all, I had to do it with a smile and act like everything was okay.

Either way, this is supposed to be a happy post, so I’ll keep it happy. I’m done with my exams, and the question now is, do I simply relax after a gruesome session? Or do I stay on the grind? Not an academic grind but a grind nonetheless. I’m saying this because I have responsibilities. I have plans. Things that I hope to do, tasks that I hope to accomplish.

And I need to do these things while trying to enjoy my holiday, while actually staying happy, and having the best time. I don’t know. I guess I need suggestions on how to balance the both or what I should do, but I really need to make the most of this holiday.

I’m so happy to get back to life before exams issues, and at the same time, I can’t wait to see what this holiday holds for me. Got a new friend in the course of this exams, and while there’s been ups and downs, I’m loving the connection, I’m loving the bonding, and I’m loving the intentionality behind every word, every gift, every thoughtful message. I’m learning a lot about myself as well. To new connections, and the thrill of the unknown, I guess.

I've learnt to be fully immersed in every moment. But at the same time, how do you live in the moment when your present and more importantly, your future glares harshly at you? There is the fear of failure, which more than anything, rules my thoughts on some days.

So yeah, my plan is to have fun while I can, but see if I can put in enough work to be able to live with myself later, after all the fun, that is. Anyway, I'm beyond stressed and I've not gotten good sleep in the last 72 hours. So yeah, gotta run. Please let me know what you think.

Jhymi🖤

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