Distrust - It's hurts and has it's effects.

Distrust is a feeling one can get at any time, it is a feeling that we humans can't seem to forget easily, it is something that really hurts us like a lot.

There was an incident that happened to someone close to me, she was at staying at my parents place, she had a son, when she came to stay with us at our home, though I was a bit younger then, but I kinda understood what she was going through, she had moved out of her home because her husband had been unfaithful to her.

I don't know why the husband was able to do that to her, he shatter her well-being, At that age I knew what being a family was about, but I wasn't in the position to give an opinion, and so there it happened that after that incident, though she waited for a while, I guess she tried to make the marriage out work to her best, but it wasn't as it use to.
According to her the husband refused to eat the food she cooked, u guess he was scared she might have poisoned it, but that wasn't it as she was trying to make what was left if it.
He stopped coming home everyday from his work, he didn't always give teacups when he did this, it was like he wanted her to go away after he was the one who committed this act, at a point when she saw she couldn't do anything to save it she packed her bags and came to our place cause she didn't have anywhere else to go, I felt her pains, my mum tried her best to make her comfortable.

But you know that feeling when you feel the world have come to an end, she felt that way, she was distorted, as she couldn't believe her marriage had broken up just like that. She stayed at our place for about 2 years, she didn't date anyone again, she had some people asking her out, but she couldn't give her trust to any man again as she had a lot of this distrust feelings towards them.

This feeling came to her because of the traumatic experience she had to go through at the hands of her ex husband. I think at one point he came back again to see her but she wasn't having it. She said she preferred to be by herself, so she knows she isn't committed to anyone, and so no one can hurt her.

I really did pity her during that period, but she was able to overcome it, though not completely because she isn't giving another person a chance in her life anymore.

This feelings is always very hard to overcome as it is like being in another world, just like how this lady felt, this is her own reason for not being able to trust anyone, this doesn't make her proud or self centered , it is what she had felt at that moment that she has made to be embedded in her mind and that's why she isn't open to anyone anymore

There are some persons that have hurt themselves because of this, and many result to suicide cause they can't bear the feelings, I believe that those who have become traumatic due to this, should seek counselling to help them move in with their life.

This is what the feeling of "Distrust" can do.

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