A mixture of a good and bad mood yesterday. A miserable experience.

I can't think of the last day I was as miserable as I was yesterday even though the day started on a happy note for me. So miserable that I lost completely the motivation to engage online and it made me sleep so early last night. Days like this actually happen.

This was how my experience started...

After being delayed at home for over 15 months being a graduate, my school finally gave us the instructions to start our clearance. Everyone was so excited because this means, we would go for National Youth Service Corps (NYSC) very soon. This is a one-year service for Nigerian graduates who are below 30 years. The course representative passed the information last week that the clearance would start on Wednesday which we were anticipating the day to arrive. There was another update that there was no statement of result yet, so those from a far distance should hold on so they won't have to come twice, thereby wasting a lot of money.

I decided to wait too for both because I wouldn't want to do things twice but once. Wednesday came and 19 students from my department did theirs successfully, but later in the day, another piece of information was passed across the group that the ultimatum for the clearance would be on Friday which is today. This is for those who would want to go with the next batch in July. This info was so quick and the deadline is a short one, especially for those who would be travelling from a long distance down to the school. We tried begging the head of the department (Hod) to extend the date which she agreed to till Tuesday because there would be a public holiday on Monday, next week. I changed my mind immediately to start my clearance on Thursday which I did yesterday.

I wouldn't want to miss this next batch as I am already tired of where I am presently. I need to relocate and change the environment. I left my home very early in the morning and began my clearance. From 9 am, I was through with everything around 2 pm. While being cleared from the department, I was opportune to check my overall CGPA and was so excited about what I have. I got home feeling so happy that I never noticed something had happened.

Getting home, I managed to prepare my meal even when I was extremely tired and my legs were hurting as a result of moving up and down. The only time I took a rest was when I was waiting for my documents to be checked and when I was photocopying most of my documents. Aside from that, it has been a stressful day going from here to there trying to make sure I got all my clearances from each department done. While cooking, I decided to unpack my stuff back to its place when I discovered my school ID card was missing. My friend was with me then and we started searching everywhere. They say, when you misplace an item, you will search even the unexpected place. We did a thorough search and scattered everything in my room because, at that point, I wasn't myself again. I was starting to get nervous when I remembered that getting another one would cost me almost $7. This has never happened to me before.

I tried recollecting how my movement in school started, and how it happened but I could not think of where it may get lost. Funny enough, it wasn't requested till the end of my clearance though it was part of those documents to go along with, that was my reason for taking it along with me to school to avoid unnecessary issues. It was then my eyes turned red, so upset at myself and my body got weak. My friend kept calming me down and assuring me it would be found.

I never bothered to explain myself in the group chat because I thought there was nothing they would do, but a friend of mine suggested I do that which I did, but I didn't get any response. My mood was down, and there was no inspiration even when I planned to come online to engage before the day ends. That experience destabilised me and couldn't think through. I found chatting so boring, I even downloaded a movie to cool me down but I only watched for five minutes and shut it down. My phone's battery was down and when a guy put on the generator, I could have charged, but I wasn't getting myself until I went to sleep.

I slept around 8 pm and woke up at 11:47 pm. I checked my group chat for any reply. I got one from a guy but he later told me he was joking. How dare he played with my emotion? I didn't want to react and I left it that way. It was then I tried to recollect again if I would find a direction of how I misplaced my card because I could not sleep, my thought was all about my card and how to raise money to get another one if I could not find it. Then, I remembered my bag fell from the shelf at the school library when I went to do my clearance there. My phone fell from the bag too, perhaps it would have been stolen but I got there at the exact time when other students were rushing in. I quickly packed my stuff back into the bag, and that must be the time the card fell which I didn't take notice of.

My instinct last night kept directing me to the library. I said a little prayer to God to help me. I had planned to go to school the next day and make sure I visit all the places I went to, asking if they found any school card. Very early this morning, I got dressed up and my mind said "Visit the school library first". On my way going, I was just praying silently because I wouldn't want to spend any $7 to get a new one and also, if I cannot find it, I won't have a choice but to pay for it because it would be needed during my service at the camp. I headed to the school library, met some staff and explained my situation to them.

At first, they denied of seeing any item but suddenly, one of the staff found a card on the table and when she showed me, I confirmed it is mine. I couldn't stop thanking her and others. I was over-excited because this was what ruined my mood yesterday and this morning, I wasn't that happy, but immediately I found it, my mood changed immediately and I started smiling at myself.

Yesterday, I wanted to get a drink for myself to cool down from the stress but I couldn't after going through such a bad moment. So after getting my card back some hours ago, I decided to get this Nutri Milk to celebrate the day for me 😃

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