That Time

Time has always been a bit wonky for me, I don't know how others see it but the stupid thing likes to become a tangled mess.

I guess it would be obvious to assume most people don't remember things by day, minute and second and instead it is just an arbitrary thought with markers such as did it snow, was it a work day or is Grandma dead already?

The past is all good and well, it hardly matters to me what the timeframe of something a month or six ago was exactly.

The problem comes in with how I see yesterday and maybe the day before that. Instead of a neat straight string with knots in for specific things , and you would assume there are clear markers in a memory so fresh. It still tends to feel just as blurred as though it was a month ago.

I guess the argument can be made that I don't particularly do anything worth remembering exactly. Which is true, but then again when your day to day is rather tedious I am sure that super dump stands out.

Now super dumps aside it can be hard to mark a days events, and then they get all jumbled and why this can be an issue is because it can lead to stagnation.

I slowdown of actions and acceleration of time. Leaving a person feeling like nothing has been accomplished because your actions have already faded from your active memory and days pass in a blur.

I guess the mind has its own version of general relativity.

To try avoid this I have started at the very least have some form of morning routine with triggers and actionable times that I do things in, this should strengthen the markers of my perceived time and actions.

The blur is all dandy when you are on vacation but it is a roadblock when you are trying to move faster in achieving goals yet notice the blur is not you getting things done but instead the world rushing by.

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