The job I needed to let go of even though I loved it.

It was my new job. I found it earlier this year and once I started I loved everything about it. I loved my boss, her children, the payment plan, and the rest of the neighbors who offered the same or almost the services as my office did.

As much as I loved that job, it was standing in the way of building my Hive account and I was always burning out. I did not do what the scripture said, which is to serve one master instead of two as I am likely to love one more than the other. I tried to hold down two masters at the same time, but what I got in return was increased stress and most times, the desire to stay in bed all day without lifting a finger.

If not that I wanted to stay committed to gaining my everyday badge on my account by publishing every day then I probably would have skipped on those days when the stress was so high and I was almost dropping off on the street.

I loved the payment plan because my boss said we will split whatever I brought to the table into three and I'll take one part. And I was good at my job. In my imagination, it was only going to take a few months and I'll start having customers who would fall in love with how I tackle their jobs and keep returning for more. So what I was seeing were future compounding returns that I was willing to bet on.

The people around were quite supportive too. They welcomed me with open arms and sometimes stare in awe at how a lady is far from home, yet finds a job instead of messing around, and tries to keep her morals intact. I smile because I had a good upbringing and I always have a reputation to protect at all times.

My boss loved that I was very hardworking although this meant a good number of the jobs went to my desk and which increased the amount of income I racked up. What she didn't know was that the fact that I had a lot of work to tackle and rack my income was because when she is away at work, her children leave all of the work for me. All of them except the junior son never want to work a day in their lives.

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So they would rather pass up the jobs, go inside, lay down, and fiddle with their phones. They had this I-don't-care attitude towards the business that placed food on their table, clothed them, and sponsored their education. I am very sure you already understand by now that it was my lady boss who took care of the entire family. I am talking about herself, her husband, and Six (6) children.

Don't ask me about her husband, he works alright, but I did not stay long enough to figure out what he does with his money. But there is one thing I noticed, he uses it on himself alone. You can see this by how healthy he looked compared to the rest of his family and how he only buys lunch and snacks for himself whenever he is in the office. Whereas, his wife buys lunch and snacks for each of them without grudges.

So coupled with the stress and the fact that my boss wasn't having a sustaining business model. What I mean by the latter is that she was using her salary to pump the ICT business and she was using the profit and capital to feed, cloth, and shelter her family. I don't blame her though, from afar, I could see that her husband wasn't very supportive.

But the fact that her business spreadsheet proved unsustainable and I was also taking some of that off the table was making me want to leave. I could identify this because of the years of learning about my finances and business finance, as well as sharing the lessons on my Hive account.

So, it was easy to see without being told that if my boss lost her secretarial job today, the ICT business will fail. Except, she and her family started learning to live below their means. Her children and husband might be able to do so since they have their father's character of not being supportive nor bringing anything to the table even though they have a few and I have a feeling they will still be digging holes into the money the business provides as a result of this.

But not my boss Lady, she didn't look like someone who would want to let go of her lifestyle, and the way she exalted herself amongst the rest of the ICT service providers in that region said it all. So, I did not see her business holding up if she did not change her ways after losing her job.

However, I am not here to judge how she and her family behave towards their business because Morgan Housel had taught me in the last few weeks, in his book, the Psychology of Money, that no one is crazy. Everything they do makes a lot of sense to them.

So, my job, even though was a good one, had some negative parts that I knew if I stayed longer, my progress will be affected.

First, being in such an environment and watching the woman take up all the financial burden alone without any support was already affecting my mental space. I was constantly angry at everyone except her because I couldn't stand their selfishness towards their mother and wife.

Secondly, my Hive activities were reducing, and like I said before I almost stopped writing.

Thirdly, being in an environment where I watch my boss spend a lot was affecting my spending habits too. I already told you how she puts an air of importance and exalted herself above others in a few sentences above. I did not know when I started doing it too.

My minimalist lifestyle went off the roof when I stayed in that environment, I was spending on unnecessary purchases and eating, then, giving myself the excuse that I needed to eat and spend more to function well. I spent more on food because I barely had time to cook anything at home. Eating out was affecting my finances in such a way that I was almost living paycheck to paycheck.

I could have cooked but that would mean sacrificing my Hive account. This is because the time I use to write is the exact time I could have used to prepare breakfast. I don't see how writing, editing, searching for proper pictures, linking to LeoGlossary, and finally hitting publish would allow me to cook at the same time.

Fourthly, juggling my physical job and my Hive account messed up my sleep schedule and pattern. So I was always looking stressed, worn out, and tired no matter how much I eat or sleep.

It was finally time to leave, and I did leave. The benefits of leaving are not even something I should waste any more of your time and share, you have seen the case presented above and you know I needed to run as far as possible from my most beloved job.