The List I Stopped Looking At

On one of my note books where I usually write some of my to-do things, I wrote my 2026 goals as far back as last December. Not on my phone note or vision board, just something I used my black biro and note book.. I only wrote six things. I could remember feeling unusually clear that morning, as if I had everything figured out already. I closed the page, waiting for the year to start.

I began working towards some of the things at the beginning of the years, I had two out of them figured out, and I was on to the next. Anyway, a few weeks ago, I found a note book under one of the books I have on my table, and I sat with it longer than I imagined. Though I later completed the third thing on the list even with having the note.

I didn't have everything perfect yet, more forward in a way I had planned for it to be. The rest on the list had not moved at all, and the honest reason to why it hasn't moved was not circumstances. It has been because I have been choosing smaller and safer things ahead of them every day till now.

And looking at the fifth thing I have on the list, it is something I will like not to do at all. Not because I abandoned it carelessly, but because the version of me who sat to write it last December now wants something different now that I am in the second half of the year. That thing is not what I needed again because it expired quietly, and I did not even notice it.

What I have learned during the first half of the year is that unfinished goals are not always failures. They are just honest and deep information concerning who I am actually becoming. Though i will still attend the other things i have planned, but with no pressure.

Thank you for reading.

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