I AM TIRED

Okay with all honesty I know I decided writing every single day for 365 days was a mission, this is the third year I am attempting it in my four years on Hive. I am always one to preach about consistency and hard work, but right now I am going to be honest with myself, I am tired. Not just bodily, but mentally. I am mentally drained, and to be honest, writing right now feels like hell and an addiction at the same time. I need to sleep, my eyes are so heavy that I know once I lay down I am gone until the next morning but then I can’t help it. No matter how much I want to close my eyes right now, my mind won’t allow me to sleep in peace.

This has been the dilemma I face since I started the hunt for the yearly streak three years ago, now it’s as though writing is in my DNA and my body would not just shut down until I have written for the day. The peace I feel everyday after writing is so satisfying, but the dilemma I face when all I want to do is sleep after a stressful day is just over the roof and I am so sick of it even though I like the improvement. I have written in the good times, the bad times, and even the terrible times. Some months ago I was robbed and all my devices were stolen and I still have not yet missed a single day to write.

I remember writing that day with tears in my eyes with my girlfriend's phone. Sometimes I used my sister's phone, sometimes I would even borrow a stranger's device and was always changing my passwords just to make sure my account was safe until I finally got a new phone. I do not know how healthy this is, I hope it isn’t an obsession because I know normal people do not write when they are not feeling well or suffering from a loss or heartbreak, but I have written in all these situations and even worse. I really hope it’s not becoming something to be concerned about. But then again I still wonder if it is such a bad thing to be addicted to this, is there a term for writing addiction or obsession?

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